15th March 2005
First this is really hard for me to admit and second some of it may be disturbing to some people so please proceed with caution.
I debated posting this on a bp board but I have bp and this effects me so...
I have a list of medical problems that's as long as your arm. Among them is bulimia. It's the cause of some of them actually.
Anyway...my bulimia had been in *remission* for 10 years. I purge by using laxative. In November of last year one of my medical problems, IBS-C, went out of control. The normal medication for this (Zelnorm) would not help at all! It was really bad. I was so sick and in so much pain. The only thing that could be done for me is to put me on a rx laxative. It was okay at first but, having to obsess over what I was eating (I was dx'd with celiac sprue during this time too)and taking the laxatives got my bulimia off and running again.
Now...the reason I have been gone...I managed to keep it up for 3 months. Well I thought I did. I was so worn out and so sick that I wasn't functioning as well as I thought. I was having more medical problems and was exhausted all the time especailly toward the end.
I ended up dehydrated and with VERY low blood pressure. After I passed out twice I finally went and got help which meant IV's and therapy. I actually had the therapy appointment made because I was starting to see I needed help. So the day of the appointment they plugged up my IV and my husband took me to my therapy appointment just like that. It was crazy. So basicly I almost killed myself without even thinking about it.
Now I feel like a fool! I know in my heart this is an illness too but my head keeps kicking me in the butt. The worst part is I saw it coming.
Now I still have to take the rx laxatives but, my husband has them and is giving them out in measured doses. I feel ashamed that he has too.
Well that's it. Aren't you glad you asked? :D I'm glad I got this all out here with you guys. I didn't realize how much I needed to share this with you all. Thanks for being here for me.
Love,
Jamie
I debated posting this on a bp board but I have bp and this effects me so...
I have a list of medical problems that's as long as your arm. Among them is bulimia. It's the cause of some of them actually.
Anyway...my bulimia had been in *remission* for 10 years. I purge by using laxative. In November of last year one of my medical problems, IBS-C, went out of control. The normal medication for this (Zelnorm) would not help at all! It was really bad. I was so sick and in so much pain. The only thing that could be done for me is to put me on a rx laxative. It was okay at first but, having to obsess over what I was eating (I was dx'd with celiac sprue during this time too)and taking the laxatives got my bulimia off and running again.
Now...the reason I have been gone...I managed to keep it up for 3 months. Well I thought I did. I was so worn out and so sick that I wasn't functioning as well as I thought. I was having more medical problems and was exhausted all the time especailly toward the end.
I ended up dehydrated and with VERY low blood pressure. After I passed out twice I finally went and got help which meant IV's and therapy. I actually had the therapy appointment made because I was starting to see I needed help. So the day of the appointment they plugged up my IV and my husband took me to my therapy appointment just like that. It was crazy. So basicly I almost killed myself without even thinking about it.
Now I feel like a fool! I know in my heart this is an illness too but my head keeps kicking me in the butt. The worst part is I saw it coming.
Now I still have to take the rx laxatives but, my husband has them and is giving them out in measured doses. I feel ashamed that he has too.
Well that's it. Aren't you glad you asked? :D I'm glad I got this all out here with you guys. I didn't realize how much I needed to share this with you all. Thanks for being here for me.
Love,
Jamie