30th January 2004
hi sammi, creeky and michelle....to answer your questions, i was taking oxycodone 10/325..it was in german as i was living in europe at the time but it was 10mg oxycodone/ 325 mg aspirin (not APAP). i got up to between 10 and 15 a day, and how i didn't get an ulcer, i don't know. i now pay the price because i can't touch any kind of anti-inflammatory. makes me sick, and with my ever increasing back pain, i am at a loss. cannot take vioxx, celebrex either. makes me sick to my stomach. i stopped in 1988, when we returned to canada, as i knew i couldn't get them here as readily. plus i was damned scared. took them initially as a result of a car accident in 1984. so i used (ever increasingly) for 4 years(from the age of 26 to 30). quit when i knew we were coming home. looking back don't know how i got through it, was pretty sick for a couple of days...but i knew (or i was convinced) that i couldn't get them any more. i did have cravings, but i had no way to go back to my habit that i knew of so i just lived without them. after awhile the cravings just went away, i guess. haven't really thought about them in years until the doc mentioned them to me a while back as a solution to my severe back pain. have to admit it opened up a wound that i thought was long since healed. i know i can't go back there..period. but i know how it is for you guys, as i was there and i understand. i was lucky in that i had a very understanding husband (and still do), even though he didn't know the extent of the problem. please don't say that you're too weak to look elsewhere for pills, say you are too smart. whatever emotion keeps you clean, be it fear, shame, weakness..etc...it doesn't matter. staying clean does...strength to all of you, whichever method you choose to stay clean and may God ease the way...PS. never went to meetings because i was too much of a coward to go....