vikes and Ultram are my D.O.C. This is my first relapse. It is hell I feel I can't tell anyone. the stresses of life are hell I was going to meetings but I stopped sharing honestly. Hid alot of my hurt cuz I felt I shouldn't feel the way I was feeling. Self will run riot. I haven't slept in a couple days and I am really feeling it. I went to work today, got that out of the way. thank God I am just waiting for 2:30 to go to my NA meeting. I gotta go and get something to eat b4 the meeting.

Thanks for your support it means the world to me.

Lori