22nd November 2007
This is a tough one. Yeah the Ultram is addictive - I don't care what anybody says. They actually gave me Ultracet my first time around getting clean (which is basically the same stuff), and it DID overcome me a did the other opiates. It is very minimal, but there IS some opiate in it (if I'm correct - please tell me if I'm wrong).... It is also very tough being partnered with an addict. I went through relationship hell my first time around.... I wasnt married, but was with someone for about a year, and when I finally got clean, I realized that I didn't like her that much. I know that sounds horrible, but it felt that my feelings for EVERYTHING changed when I went from one life to another. You're going to have to work hard on things - that's for sure - but the first thing you need to do is get that guy to stop calling. Also, give hubby an ultimatum - tell him if he continues using, that you're out. Make him realize that you and your children are MUCH more important than those little round demons.... 10-14 a day isn't really a HUGE amount (well, it also depends on the strength) - so it shouldn't be all that bad to get off of them.
But as I always say...YOU ARE IN THE RIGHT PLACE right now.... This board is awesome, and you will find a ton of people who care - and who can help you through this.
So God bless.....good luck....Happy Turkey Day.....and keep us posted!!
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