Shelly- your not alone, my dear. When my daughter was sick w/ bronchitis last year, I gave her OTC cough syrup so I could keep hers. (Tussionex also) Certainly not something I'm proud of, or like to admit having done. We've all made bad choices and had to live w/ the consequences. However, on these boards you will find so many people that you can relate to and sympathize with. Read others stories, you'll find strenghth in them. ( I sure did ) and if support and encouragement are what your looking for... it's endless here.

I think the first thing you need to do though, is make a decision. Are you ready to stop letting these drugs run your life? Sounds like this has been a very long and difficult battle for you, are you tired yet?... There really is another way to live. I'm not saying it will be easy, it will be hell. But, isn't what your going through right now, pretty close to hell? Can't be much worse, right?... The choice is yours...

Hang in there, your really not alone.