13th September 2006
Hey Marilyn,
Good for you! You're a lot stronger than I am. I've been feeling very guilty actually. I haven't popped any pills (my DOC), but I've been sick. Monday, day 10, I went to the doc. I found out I have strep throat and I've been taking nyquil and every over the counter med without relief. So I didn't say anything when they prescribed me cough syrup. It was my old fave- tussionex, with hydrocodone. I know I should have said something, but I was happy to get a script for it. I took some Monday night, yesterday and today. Now, I haven't been chugging on the bottle like the old me would have, I've been trying to follow doc's orders, but I take 2 t when it says take 1. I know it's not pain pills, but it is hydrocodone. The weird thing is, which I guess is good, is that it's made me feel like crap. No energy, nothing good that I remembered about hydros. Just feeling anxious, aggravated, nauseous, kind of spun up like I had energy, yet unable to get off my butt and do anything. Anyway, I took what I had left and hid it, way up high in the top shelf of the back of my closet, where I had to get a chair to get it there. I'm not going to take anymore. So I can't come on here boasting about my clean days, because these weren't clean days. I guess I'll start tomorrow as my day 10 again. Anyway, just wanted to fess up. It's not the same buzz as the pills, and it's not pills, but it's the same drug, just in another form. I know I'm playing with fire, and I don't want to go back down that path, so no more, no mas. Between that and the antibiotics, I'm finally feeling better. Thank God. I've been sick since last week. Anyway, thanks for listening/reading.
Debbie
Good for you! You're a lot stronger than I am. I've been feeling very guilty actually. I haven't popped any pills (my DOC), but I've been sick. Monday, day 10, I went to the doc. I found out I have strep throat and I've been taking nyquil and every over the counter med without relief. So I didn't say anything when they prescribed me cough syrup. It was my old fave- tussionex, with hydrocodone. I know I should have said something, but I was happy to get a script for it. I took some Monday night, yesterday and today. Now, I haven't been chugging on the bottle like the old me would have, I've been trying to follow doc's orders, but I take 2 t when it says take 1. I know it's not pain pills, but it is hydrocodone. The weird thing is, which I guess is good, is that it's made me feel like crap. No energy, nothing good that I remembered about hydros. Just feeling anxious, aggravated, nauseous, kind of spun up like I had energy, yet unable to get off my butt and do anything. Anyway, I took what I had left and hid it, way up high in the top shelf of the back of my closet, where I had to get a chair to get it there. I'm not going to take anymore. So I can't come on here boasting about my clean days, because these weren't clean days. I guess I'll start tomorrow as my day 10 again. Anyway, just wanted to fess up. It's not the same buzz as the pills, and it's not pills, but it's the same drug, just in another form. I know I'm playing with fire, and I don't want to go back down that path, so no more, no mas. Between that and the antibiotics, I'm finally feeling better. Thank God. I've been sick since last week. Anyway, thanks for listening/reading.
Debbie