2nd September 2006
Hi all,
Some of you might remember me because I've been on and off pills (and these boards) for years. I quit for about a month in January, then- like an idiot- started back. Well, the pill use started at only 4 a day. I thought I had it under control this time. It escaleted back to 15 or so a day. I would take 3-4 norcos at a time and hardly feel them. I even spent $600 on pills and tussionex cough syrup from an OP and now I'm broke. Well, I took all my pills yesterday and last night. I am done. I am off work Mon- Wed. and I'm going to use these 5 days to detox. I have a little daughter who's 6, and I'm all she has in this world. If I keep taking these pills, I'm going to kill myself. Not to mention how spacy and snappy and angry I get on them. She deserves better. So, it's 3:20 and I feel so weird. My skin is crawling and jumpy and I don't feel like myself at all. But I am really determined. Other times I'd be off for a few days and try to quit, but I always had pills around. I knew that if I took everything, and with the holiday weekend, there's no way I could get more. I don't want more. I want to live. I want to be clean.
So, I thought I'd check in with you guys and say hi. I've been on these pills for 5 years or more. I think the only real time I quit was this past January. It's so pathetic. Thanks for listening.
Some of you might remember me because I've been on and off pills (and these boards) for years. I quit for about a month in January, then- like an idiot- started back. Well, the pill use started at only 4 a day. I thought I had it under control this time. It escaleted back to 15 or so a day. I would take 3-4 norcos at a time and hardly feel them. I even spent $600 on pills and tussionex cough syrup from an OP and now I'm broke. Well, I took all my pills yesterday and last night. I am done. I am off work Mon- Wed. and I'm going to use these 5 days to detox. I have a little daughter who's 6, and I'm all she has in this world. If I keep taking these pills, I'm going to kill myself. Not to mention how spacy and snappy and angry I get on them. She deserves better. So, it's 3:20 and I feel so weird. My skin is crawling and jumpy and I don't feel like myself at all. But I am really determined. Other times I'd be off for a few days and try to quit, but I always had pills around. I knew that if I took everything, and with the holiday weekend, there's no way I could get more. I don't want more. I want to live. I want to be clean.
So, I thought I'd check in with you guys and say hi. I've been on these pills for 5 years or more. I think the only real time I quit was this past January. It's so pathetic. Thanks for listening.