1st May 2006
Hello all to begin! I am new here, but it is time for me to do something before my entire life comes crashing down around me.
I am a 32-year-old mother of two. Seven years ago I was prescribed Tussionex for a chronic, severe cough. After being maintained on this for a long period of time, things came to a bit of a head and I tried to seek help. A doctor actually responded to me telling them I thought I was addicted to this medication by telling me that "no-one would take cough medication they didn't need". This comment was the beginning of the end for me. I also suffer from a chronic problem that has required several surgeries (and I have another yet to come) and results in a large amount of physical limitation and pain. I have been given pain medication for this in the past on a fairly regular basis and have been maintained on Percocet now for three years. Any time that Percocet is not available to me, I resort to any narcotic I can get my hands on, and have even used huge doses of Tylenol # 1 to tide me over until my next Percocet prescription can be obtained.
I use Percocet in enormous doses (I scare myself with this even). I generally use this all at once (most times in the morning and up until recently once a day was enough), but in recent months find that if I have a new prescription I find myself taking it several times a day. Part of the reason I take it is a high that I am hard-pressed to even get anymore, and part is to stave off any withdrawal symptoms. Within a very short time without narcotics in my system I begin having incredible cramps and diarrhea that Immodium does not even help (lomotil helps this, but I even abuse this).
I cannot seek help outside because by some miracle I have not managed to screw up too much in my life and few people (only who I have confided in) even realize that I have a problem. I would be in danger of losing one of my children if I was to seek help, however, I know that if I don't act quickly, this is likely to happen anyway.
Anyone with ANY advice for me ??? Please...thank you so much in advance
I am a 32-year-old mother of two. Seven years ago I was prescribed Tussionex for a chronic, severe cough. After being maintained on this for a long period of time, things came to a bit of a head and I tried to seek help. A doctor actually responded to me telling them I thought I was addicted to this medication by telling me that "no-one would take cough medication they didn't need". This comment was the beginning of the end for me. I also suffer from a chronic problem that has required several surgeries (and I have another yet to come) and results in a large amount of physical limitation and pain. I have been given pain medication for this in the past on a fairly regular basis and have been maintained on Percocet now for three years. Any time that Percocet is not available to me, I resort to any narcotic I can get my hands on, and have even used huge doses of Tylenol # 1 to tide me over until my next Percocet prescription can be obtained.
I use Percocet in enormous doses (I scare myself with this even). I generally use this all at once (most times in the morning and up until recently once a day was enough), but in recent months find that if I have a new prescription I find myself taking it several times a day. Part of the reason I take it is a high that I am hard-pressed to even get anymore, and part is to stave off any withdrawal symptoms. Within a very short time without narcotics in my system I begin having incredible cramps and diarrhea that Immodium does not even help (lomotil helps this, but I even abuse this).
I cannot seek help outside because by some miracle I have not managed to screw up too much in my life and few people (only who I have confided in) even realize that I have a problem. I would be in danger of losing one of my children if I was to seek help, however, I know that if I don't act quickly, this is likely to happen anyway.
Anyone with ANY advice for me ??? Please...thank you so much in advance