You are all so very kind. Thank you.

No Tina, there is no one I can tell about this. I got myself into this mess and I can get myself out of this mess. I am so sure that not keeping that bottle with me at work will be a great idea. I know that if I take any extra hydro too close to bedtime, it will keep me awake. So, I would not be tempted to take an extra dose when I get home.

I am so ready for this. I remember one poster here named Phil. He talked about his taper and he said that he would be in the grocery store, standing in line and being so jealous of all the "normal" people around him. Well, that is me now. I have to get my pill free life back. Failure is not an option. I was so disappointed when I failed with the Suboxone.

Yes, my refill did come yesterday and I have only taken 2 of the tablets. Mainly because I am sick. My kids were nice enough to give me a cold. I felt so bad I had to go to the doctor yesterday. My cold has turned into a sinus infection,an ear infection and bronchitis. I had a fever and my usually lower than normal blood pressure was 152/95. He started me on Augemtin, Mucinex and Tussionex.

I know that Tussionex contains the very medicine I am trying to escape from but I have not been overusing. I took 2 doses yesterday, as directed. I have not taken a dose so far today but I will at bedtime, so I won't cough my head off all night.

I know finishing this taper will take will power and time. I am not going to rush, so maybe I won't back slide.

Thank you all for your advice. Constant, I wish I could confide in someone and have them hold my pills for me but I can't. I feel like I would sully my reputation with the people who trust me. I will have to rely on God's help. I have been doing a lot of praying as I have been tapering.

Thanks again everyone. You all are very kind!