5th January 2004
Rosie, Michelle, Nikka, everyone....I haven't told my husband yet. Rosie, my husband's birthday is also coming up. I think for sure I'll wait until it is over. I'm going to the doctor on Wednesday and will most likely be getting more hydros. I tried to taper but it failed. I think Phil was right...my taper was too steep. I'm going to taper successfully with this bottle. I'll probably get at least 90 or as much as 120. Either way, I think 90 will give me enough to taper successfully.
Michelle... after reading your story....I just feel the same way you do. I remember when I would also do the internet thing. More to have a stockpile. I was so anxious come fedex day....I couldn't take the stress of that. Plus, it never failed...hubby would come home from work early that day or the truck was later delivering...etc., etc.,... I was always making up some excuse. I still can't believe he never caught on. I think the delivery going to your husband's office was a sign for you. I'm so sacred after reading all about Sub that I pray you can successfully taper....perhaps hyrdo would be the safer taper? I really don't know anything about Sub and am still in denial that I'm almost afraid to education myself. How are you doing this morning? Where are you now in the taper? I pray that you don't have to be hospitalized. I know how you feel about your children....I can't breathe w/out mine. I know that sounds queer. But I'm just so in love with them. Plus, my 6 y/o is pretty intuitive. I wouldn't want to dissappoint him either.
Rosie....I was taking so much that I never really kept track. Was it 20 10/500's a day plus a few gulps of atuss, hydrotuss, tussionex.....was it 10 pills a day and then more when I couldn't remember taking some of the pills? I really have no idea. I do know that I was physically becoming sick from them. I am currently only taking 4-5 a day. I tried to taper taking 4 a day for 3 days but on day 4 when I was only taking 3...I just couldn't do it. But, I feel okay w/4 a day so I want to stay there a little longer then taper down and then just go cold turkey. Prolonging the w/d's just isn't pleasant.
I wish you all a very happy day. Keep the faith.
Michelle... after reading your story....I just feel the same way you do. I remember when I would also do the internet thing. More to have a stockpile. I was so anxious come fedex day....I couldn't take the stress of that. Plus, it never failed...hubby would come home from work early that day or the truck was later delivering...etc., etc.,... I was always making up some excuse. I still can't believe he never caught on. I think the delivery going to your husband's office was a sign for you. I'm so sacred after reading all about Sub that I pray you can successfully taper....perhaps hyrdo would be the safer taper? I really don't know anything about Sub and am still in denial that I'm almost afraid to education myself. How are you doing this morning? Where are you now in the taper? I pray that you don't have to be hospitalized. I know how you feel about your children....I can't breathe w/out mine. I know that sounds queer. But I'm just so in love with them. Plus, my 6 y/o is pretty intuitive. I wouldn't want to dissappoint him either.
Rosie....I was taking so much that I never really kept track. Was it 20 10/500's a day plus a few gulps of atuss, hydrotuss, tussionex.....was it 10 pills a day and then more when I couldn't remember taking some of the pills? I really have no idea. I do know that I was physically becoming sick from them. I am currently only taking 4-5 a day. I tried to taper taking 4 a day for 3 days but on day 4 when I was only taking 3...I just couldn't do it. But, I feel okay w/4 a day so I want to stay there a little longer then taper down and then just go cold turkey. Prolonging the w/d's just isn't pleasant.
I wish you all a very happy day. Keep the faith.