Hey Girl, It's me Christina!!!! WHATS GOING ON!!! Sorry that i havent gotten back to u sooner, but I dont have a computer at home and when I go to college I use the computer there. GOOD LUCK ON RECOVERY!!! Its been 2years clean for me. I havent smoked a cigarette or pot, or dust or drank alcohol in 2 years. I feel so great. Im very religious. i go to church every sunday and read my scriptures and pray every night to god. I really changed my life. I did have a gambiling addiction but its 3weeks clean for that, so now Im a good girl. What pain pills were you addicted too?? CODEINE??? I DIDNT GO TO REHAB FOR MY RECOVERY I STOPPED COLD TURKEY AND JUST GOT RID OF MY NEGATIVE FRIENDS!!!! THATS WHAT DID IT!!! AND THATS HOW I CHANGED MY LIFE!!!! ITS ALL PSYCHOLOGICAL IF U THINK ABOUT IT!!! U THINK U WANT THE DRUG OR CIGARETTE!!! ITS OUR MIND PLAYING TRICKS WITH U! JUST TELL YOURSELF OTHER THINGS LIKE IM GOING TO READ A BOOK NOW!! IM GOING TO LISTEN TO MUSIC< IM GOING TO talk on the phone, im going to go into the garden, im going to do yoga. you have to occupy your mind with positive things not negative things. thats how these unwanted thoughts get into our heads. I wish u lived closer and they allowed people to exchange email or phone numbers, because i could help u with recovery. Its all in the mind huney.. if you start eating healthy like eating SALMON and fishes and working out in the gym and take your mind away from the negative thoughts, then your mind will slowly recover from the damage the pills have done. I learned this be reading and the bible. Your a great person and friend. I will miss you, when you leave. please when you get back send me a message. IS there any other way to send messagess here, than looking for what you have wrote and then responding???? I actually slept an hour last night.. i had a dream. does that mean i slept for alittle while. The dr said i can stop one of my pills. and thats the trileptal. so now im on seroquel, topamax and trazadone. the reason i dont sleep the doctor said is because i dont take all the pillls at once. I dont like that, because of side effects!! i sorta did last night, but not exactly. I hope you like your new rehab. where are you from?? me NY..I live on a apple farm with 2 houses with my grandpa, dad, stepmom, sister carla, sister claire. there my half sisters. because there mother is not my real mother. my real mother is a very cold individual. very different than i am.. i care about everyone. i put eveyone before myself, and im very giving. how old are your daughters?? do they know whats going on??? whose going to watch them while your gone?? and how about your joj??? well im in college now, and i got to get going, but i will send you one last message tomorrow. i hope you will be okay. Do a lot of praying to god!!! You will learn a lot from this experience. you are only bettering sara. Love always, Christina