Had to go back to the Doc today as my nrver ending Flu has given me sinus and chest infections. She asked how all was going and like a fool I was honest right down to the night I nearly put my car into a logging truck. Never did get a chance to say that the last 2 weeks at work have been full on with me doing 12 to 16 hour days. I was feeling great before that and I knew I was heading for a downer. The Flu, long hours and lack of sleep just made it worse. She wanted me to take a weeks sick leave ( I have about 3 months up) but we are still 2 short at work. I said to her "No". The PDoc was pushed again I said "No". She said to me she could get me committed. I told her not to threaten me or I stop coming. She said if I don't come back in 2 days she will process the paper work for commitment ( and people think I am paranoid). She gave me a script for Temazepam 20mg. I can fall asleep but have trouble staying that way when I am down or up. Sorta aggrevates the problem.
I don't like being threatened. I have told her that I am only after maintenence till the house is sold and I can get back home. Now I don't want to go back but if I don't there will be people coming to get me. That's what I get for being honest. Never again.
That is the short verson. I am truly afraid I will end up locked up.

On a good note, my ***** cat that I thought was dead came home last night.