hey t,

i can't believe after all this time, this doc of yours can't do anything about your nightmares!!! there MUSt be something that can be done. i just can't imagine there not being anything to help you at least a little in this regard. that temazepam doesn't seem to be doing anything for you....i mean for crying out loud, they put people on the moon, and send satellites out into space, and they can't get rid of some darn nightmares!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe this crap!

t.--i know this may be a bit invasive and you dont have to answer if you don't want to, and i don't know if i've asked this before...but the voices, are they friendly or not? i mean, what do they say? im just curious. i work within the mental health field (i see a few people on this site said they do as well), and i've heard some things, and seen some things-- but your issues seem to be pretty "involved." in one of my experiences--we had a lady (God bless her, since she passed away at the begining of the year, due to lots of physical illnesses and after a long bout with complications from pneumonia...) who would talk to "the kids" as she'd call them....apparently some of these kids would be real people from her childhood, who really upset her when she was little, and she used to fight with them and call them names (curse them) at times, but at other times, she used to be pretty much ok with them, you know...and they didn't bother her very much....but of course, she was on meds....she also used to see a white dog at times... i'm not very sure or exact about what it was that these "kids' said to her, since she spoke mostly spanish, and things had to be translated, and maybe her ideas got lost in translation....

anyway, sorry if i said anything unpleasant to you...i was just curious and i guess nosy. you don't have to answer anything at all if you don't want to!!!!

i hope that as this week goes by, you'll start feeling slightly better. please try to get out of the house a bit, just a little bit if you can...walk around a bit..look at the trees...maybe go to a botanical garden. the tulips are so beautiful at this time of the year....

i'm thinking of you and looking forward to your posts!!! :angel:

hi t,

thanks very much for answering my question. i still really think and firmly believe that you can get much more benefits from one of the atypical antipsychotics out there...again, like seroquel, abilify, or geodon!!! in my opinion, i really don't think that all these antidepressants you're on are helping much, and you can see that. and the temazepam only helps you sleep, but even this one doesn't do its job well anymore. t., there is a better cocktail, or even ONE med., out there for you, man! you don't have to go through all of this!! i don't understand your dr. i'm sorry, i just don't. but i keep hoping for good things for you. it's just that to see someone struggling so when something "better" may be available.... i get sort of sad and impatient myself. it's as if i wish i could speak up for you, i don't know how to describe it!!!
anyway, i'm always in your corner!!!!
d. :angel:

p.s. i was on lithium too, for a while....when my darkness became too dark, but it didn't help after a while either...so, i let it go...because like you, i completely felt as if my body was just full of pills...and to what avail, when they didn't work?!!! only on effexor now and an antianxiety med..although, still having days where i struggle. but who doesn't in this world/this lifetime?!!!

p.p.s. please keep writing on here, like you used to...remember? that would be a good outlet (at least a little) for you!
God Bless!!!