17th January 2007
Reach, You are soooo right. I had my first craving or anxiety attack (i think) and I didnt like it at all! But, I took one valerian to relax and laid back on the couch. I cried at a song I heard on CMT and let my mind get lost in the music. I found that it (whatever it was) did pass in a few minutes. The valerian herbs works great for me and it doesnt make me drowsy.
We drove by the house that we want and I like it better than when we 1st went to look at it over a year ago, before the remodel. I am fearful of getting excited and being let down. But, I gave this to God also and if it is in his will, it will happen and this I know. But, let me tell you about it. Its a 3-1 with 2 formal living areas and everything has been replaced. TOTAL remodel. Windows/doors/fixtures/paint/carpet/tiling etc. I pictured my girls in this house. It is a small starter home. Listed for $84,900.00 We would have to build on as the baby (now 3) grows up and there is a HUGE shop for my husband to make into his own and store his tools, plus a small garage to keep all my holiday decorations. (hooray) It has a BIG back yard for the girls swing set and bikes and stuff. This house is about 5 houses down from where my cousin grew up. I literally rode my bike up & down this street for many,many years. There is a park within walking distance that I dream about taking the girls to so I can get excersize and they can get wore out! lol
My oldest girl (8) would have her own room and finally get to embark on responsibility of her own room and said she would like Daddy to one day paint it a special color for her and have her Nana make some curtains and stuff for the windows.
I prayed for this to happen, to be given a chance to start over, and to do it right this time. I dont want to keep moving around and the girls having to change schools. I want them to grow up on the same street, in the same town, and go to the same school until they leave home. This is what i had for the first 12 years of my life and I think it is crutial to a child's well-being. As well as having competent parents :)
But, I am not going to dwell on it (hopefully) if it doesnt happen.
Reach, sorry to get off subject, but I so very much appreciate those who deal w. my scatterbrained self. I often forget what I say and repeat it over and over again. I would imagine I have bored some here with my ongoing neverending yaking. Its just ME. I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not!!
I do love ya Reach, words cannot express that.
Debbie, I thank you girl for being here! I get wrapped up in myself and forget to thank everyone and appreciate those who are here for me, so if I have forgotten to post, please forgive me.
I am staying the course guys. Went out and bought an energy drink, got some diet/energy pills (over the counter) to help w. the lack of energy until I can get moving around during the day, and some tylenol pm. I had to take another temazepam last night, going on one week now, and I HATE that. I am flushing the remainder of the script soon as I get off here.
You all would be proud of me at the SMALL changes I am making. For 2 days in a row I have helped both girls with their school homework. I cannot even remember the last time i did that. Also trying to put them back on a regular schedule. Thats gonna be hard, but we all need it.
Thanks to everyone for the support, knowledge and sharing!
Love you all & God bless!!
We drove by the house that we want and I like it better than when we 1st went to look at it over a year ago, before the remodel. I am fearful of getting excited and being let down. But, I gave this to God also and if it is in his will, it will happen and this I know. But, let me tell you about it. Its a 3-1 with 2 formal living areas and everything has been replaced. TOTAL remodel. Windows/doors/fixtures/paint/carpet/tiling etc. I pictured my girls in this house. It is a small starter home. Listed for $84,900.00 We would have to build on as the baby (now 3) grows up and there is a HUGE shop for my husband to make into his own and store his tools, plus a small garage to keep all my holiday decorations. (hooray) It has a BIG back yard for the girls swing set and bikes and stuff. This house is about 5 houses down from where my cousin grew up. I literally rode my bike up & down this street for many,many years. There is a park within walking distance that I dream about taking the girls to so I can get excersize and they can get wore out! lol
My oldest girl (8) would have her own room and finally get to embark on responsibility of her own room and said she would like Daddy to one day paint it a special color for her and have her Nana make some curtains and stuff for the windows.
I prayed for this to happen, to be given a chance to start over, and to do it right this time. I dont want to keep moving around and the girls having to change schools. I want them to grow up on the same street, in the same town, and go to the same school until they leave home. This is what i had for the first 12 years of my life and I think it is crutial to a child's well-being. As well as having competent parents :)
But, I am not going to dwell on it (hopefully) if it doesnt happen.
Reach, sorry to get off subject, but I so very much appreciate those who deal w. my scatterbrained self. I often forget what I say and repeat it over and over again. I would imagine I have bored some here with my ongoing neverending yaking. Its just ME. I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not!!
I do love ya Reach, words cannot express that.
Debbie, I thank you girl for being here! I get wrapped up in myself and forget to thank everyone and appreciate those who are here for me, so if I have forgotten to post, please forgive me.
I am staying the course guys. Went out and bought an energy drink, got some diet/energy pills (over the counter) to help w. the lack of energy until I can get moving around during the day, and some tylenol pm. I had to take another temazepam last night, going on one week now, and I HATE that. I am flushing the remainder of the script soon as I get off here.
You all would be proud of me at the SMALL changes I am making. For 2 days in a row I have helped both girls with their school homework. I cannot even remember the last time i did that. Also trying to put them back on a regular schedule. Thats gonna be hard, but we all need it.
Thanks to everyone for the support, knowledge and sharing!
Love you all & God bless!!