Im at the end of my rope. ive been on serquol geodon,depakote,lithium,lamictal,risperdal and a few others. This week has been very bad for me in that Ive have major mood swings,crying,aniexty and wanting to kill myself. Yes Ive tried keeping busy and talking to people but ends up going back to the same old feelings. I see my pysc today but am not sure how much longer I can continue to hold on to life. The last time I saw the pysc see didnt want to give me anything for aniexty because I might get addicted. At this point I really dont care. Ive been on buspar and vistaril before but it was a joke. Also have tried temazepam and that didnt help either. On top of all this I am even more stressed because the wife isnt working that much, i miss work because I feel like crap, we are staying at the inlaws until things get better and I have to claim bankruptcy and we will be loosing one car. Where is there hope in that? Where is the light at the end of the tunnel? Some times posting is a little on the slow side is there a chat room that people use?