Ok, here's the problem

I've posted on here before asking about Suboxone and got a lot of helpful responses. Only difficulty was that I called around and there is only one doctor in my area who works with addicts and prescribes Suboxone and his waiting list is enormous and his charges are $400 for the initial visit plus $100 each week thereafter. OK, so, didn't do that.
I've been insufflating somewhere between 80 and 120 mg of Oxycontin for the past few months. I ran out of Oxy a few days ago and have been taking about 10 7.5/500 Lortabs......I've already started feeling a bit of withdrawals, but nothing really bad.
Now, here's where I'm really screwed. I seem to no longer have a source for Oxy's and my girlfriend and I are leaving for our long planned vacation to Bora Bora in 6 days. Today is July 29th and I have enough Lortab to last me for 2-3 more days WHICH MEANS that I will be right in the throes of withdrawals at the beginning of the trip which will last from Aug 4th till August 14th. Now, I do have Clonidine 0.1mg (40tbs)and 0.2mg(20tbs) , Ativan 1mg(27tbs), Temazepam 30mg(18tbs), Immodium 2mg, Motrin 600mg, and Pepto Bismol on hand. Do you think that will be enough to make the worst of the withdrawals at least tolerable so that I can enjoy this vacation? What else can I do? PLEASE someone help me out. We've been planning this vacation forever. I feel like God is punishing me for being an addict, and maybe he is, but I don't want to have a horrible time and I certianly don't want to ruin this trip for my girlfriend. Any advice about anything extra I might be able to do would be helpful. Supplements? Exercises? Foods? Also, do you think with the meds I have that it will at least be tolerable enough for me to enjoy myself? How much does the Clonidine and Lorazepam actually help? I've never used it before.
Thank all of you so much for your help and support the first time I mailed. I really do want my life to be back to normal. I know that my hand has been forced, but I think I'm going on the right track. In fact, my Oxy connection today said she might be able to get me more when I get back and I told her no. By then, I should be all the way through the withdrawals and only have to fight the cravings. I've done it before though. I was clean for almost two years before this. I can make it again. Forever this time. Thanks again for any help or support.

Jester

Please someone give me a little bit of support. I hope I didn't say anything wrong or offend anyone with my previous post. I know that there are lots of caring, compassionate and generous people on this board. I pray that no one is saying "This is what you get, you've ruined your great vacation" I am so sad right now. This trip was given to us as a gift and I can't ruin it. Its Fri night right now and I'm throwing the rest of my pills down the toilet as I write this. I'll be coming to this board for support for the next five days, so please someone write back to me. I can't tell my girlfriend about this, who is the one who will be taking care of me for the duration, because she left her last boyfriend because of an extreme drug addiction. Although his addiction messed up his life, mine has not surfaced in such a negative way.........but if continued, it will. I am a 25 yr old college student, spent 6 years in the military and have a whole beautiful life ahead of me. I just need some people to talk to who can help me through this.

So, I'm done flushing them. That almost killed me, but I did it. I did it for my girlfriend. I love her too much to ever let her be unhappy. We're leaving for Bora Bora on the 4th and arriving on the 5th. That night ( which is her birthday ) we're having the honeymoon dinner on the beach. I can't see myself vomiting and having diarrhea while we have this beautiful candlelit dinner. I love her too much to ruin this vacation because of my stupidity. So, as of now, I have 5 days until we leave and 6 days until that night. Someone please tell me the worst of it will be over by then. I've done withdrawals before. The first time was only about 3 days, but my habit is about 40mg higher and has lasted much longer this time. Last time I tried I only made it 3 days and then relapsed. Do most people start feeling human again around day four?

Like I said earlier. I have Clonodine, Ativan, Immodium, Temazepam for sleep, and Motrin 600. The biggest problem for me is the leg pain and twitches. Does someone know of anything that can help with that? I read in a previous post about quinine water. What is this? How does it work? How much do you take? Does anyone know of something else to help with the leg pain. Mine is exceptionally bad because I have two ruptured lumbar disks.

I really pray that someone writes back. I just need someone to talk to. Anyone who has been through this before or is going through it now. A helping hand, a shoulder, a word of inspiration...........WE all know the mind is a powerful force. Just someone telling me that my withdrawals will only last 2-3 days may make that happen.

Someone tell me how much Clonidine or Ativan helped them with their withdrawals. I would really appreciate anything.

Thanks so much to anyone who responds. Everyone who is in the same boat as me. Keep your head up. Focus on your goals and your loved ones.