5th February 2005
Hello all,
I have basically two questions. First a little background. I am 23 and have had chronic thorasic lumbar(lower back) pain since I was about 18. The pain appeared out of nowhere, and refusese to reveal its cause. First, treatments involved chiropractors and physical therapy, but my doctors and I eventually moved on to drugs. There was a multitude of different drugs tried, but we finally settled on Ultram and Skelaxin(muscle relaxer). I have been using these for about two years now. Now the questions.
First and foremost, I need advice. I am well aware that I am addicted to ultram, and have been for some time. I take 2 50mg Ultram, and 1 Skelaxin Three times a day. I have ran out before, and experienced withdrawls...so there is no doubt I am addicted. However, I STILL HAVE PAIN. So I'm really havin trouble deciding here what to do....what happens when you have a legitimate need for something you are addicted too? I am scared to talk to my doctor about this...because I am afraid at the first mention of addiction, all pain meds will be cut off. Any advice?
Second question...and the one that I am really upset at myself about. I do not have a history of drug abuse, and despite pain (and availability) have managed to stay away from hydro's perco's etc etc. However, for about the last month and a half or so, I have been sneaking ONE flexiral, which is a muscle relaxer with every dose of my other pills. The pills are my fathers, and I started doing it simply for more relief from the tension that is my back pain. However, I have decided that since these were not meant for me, and because of how tired they make me that I would stop. Today was the first day. I feel REALLY ****ING WEIRD. It is hard to type because my hands and arms are so shaky and I feel dizzy, nauseus, anxious, nervous etc etc. It is not BAD.....but I am pretty sure these are w/d symptoms. Could Flexiral have taken hold in as little time as 2 months max?? Am I now addicted to Flexiral as well. I am so ashamed that I was sneaking these, because now I truly feel like an abuser...I am scared to tell my girlfriend, who is having to deal with me today, that the reason I am being an ******* is because I was taking my dad's pills on the side...its flat out embarrasing. Any comments would be appreciated. Thanks.
I have basically two questions. First a little background. I am 23 and have had chronic thorasic lumbar(lower back) pain since I was about 18. The pain appeared out of nowhere, and refusese to reveal its cause. First, treatments involved chiropractors and physical therapy, but my doctors and I eventually moved on to drugs. There was a multitude of different drugs tried, but we finally settled on Ultram and Skelaxin(muscle relaxer). I have been using these for about two years now. Now the questions.
First and foremost, I need advice. I am well aware that I am addicted to ultram, and have been for some time. I take 2 50mg Ultram, and 1 Skelaxin Three times a day. I have ran out before, and experienced withdrawls...so there is no doubt I am addicted. However, I STILL HAVE PAIN. So I'm really havin trouble deciding here what to do....what happens when you have a legitimate need for something you are addicted too? I am scared to talk to my doctor about this...because I am afraid at the first mention of addiction, all pain meds will be cut off. Any advice?
Second question...and the one that I am really upset at myself about. I do not have a history of drug abuse, and despite pain (and availability) have managed to stay away from hydro's perco's etc etc. However, for about the last month and a half or so, I have been sneaking ONE flexiral, which is a muscle relaxer with every dose of my other pills. The pills are my fathers, and I started doing it simply for more relief from the tension that is my back pain. However, I have decided that since these were not meant for me, and because of how tired they make me that I would stop. Today was the first day. I feel REALLY ****ING WEIRD. It is hard to type because my hands and arms are so shaky and I feel dizzy, nauseus, anxious, nervous etc etc. It is not BAD.....but I am pretty sure these are w/d symptoms. Could Flexiral have taken hold in as little time as 2 months max?? Am I now addicted to Flexiral as well. I am so ashamed that I was sneaking these, because now I truly feel like an abuser...I am scared to tell my girlfriend, who is having to deal with me today, that the reason I am being an ******* is because I was taking my dad's pills on the side...its flat out embarrasing. Any comments would be appreciated. Thanks.