I've been so good since august as far as my prescriptions go. Lamctil, Lithium, Kolonopins, Seroquel. Then last week my sister but liqour into the house and it all started. Handfulls of kolonopins and seroquels. I ran out of seroquels so I stole a 25 and a 200 from my sister and snorted the 25, saving the 200 for new years. Stole muscle relaxers and pain killers from her and my mom. Been hiding a bottle a vodka between my mattresses and guzzeling that. WHAT do I do? Tomorrow I'm going to buy dramamine and see how I can get by until the end of january when I can get my kols refilled again.

The main thing causing this breakdown is getting in trouble at work. I was a "super teller" at work. I work at a bank. Been working there since last year, then the bipolar blindsided me. I've called in sick 25 days since april, I've been out of balance way too much. I think it is because of the disorder and the meds, and this is before I started absuing them. My supervisor new, then I had to tell my manager, he called our Assistant Vice President and our HR department. WHAT do I do? HOW can I protect myself?

Thank you.