15th May 2005
Dear Ukonom,
You have done really well and I'm sure will continue to do so as we, here on this board, will be watching. :nono:
This is probably the hardest time for you, and while the sneezes and watery eyes are annoying (and truly, I cannot imagine, why they are lasting so **** long!) but, it is the "restless leg syndrome" that is the very worst!! I remember having this and covering up with a quilt (down) that had been in a cold room. I don't know why, but this cold quilt on my legs eased that feeling, enough, that I was able to get to sleep. Now, I'm not suggesting, putting your comforter in the refrigerator, but....I take a medication called Seroquel, it was given to me by my Psychiatrist whom I see for depression (chronic) and for adult ADD. It is a medication, which is used for Psycotic patients, however, they take about 800 mg. a day. He has prescribed from 25 mgs to 75mgs, as much as I need, really, for sleep. It does not act like a sleeping pill really, rather it makes you feel a normal drowsiness from which you fall into a nice sleep (with dreams) and wake in the morning with no "sleeping pill hangover", you just feel nice and rested. I don't know if you can get this medication from a regular family doctor. You probably, need a Psychiatrist, to prescribe it. But, as you know, we were all able to get our DOC, which usually was not prescribed (well not in the amounts, we were gulping down) so perhaps, you could really work on getting it, not illegally, of course, but if you could see and addiction doc. or Psych. for a consultation and explained all that you have been through and accomplished on your own, you could get a prescription for the Seroquel. Maybe your own doctor would prescribe it if you told him that you need it for sleep. If you are not getting a good nights sleep, then everything else falls apart, and depression creeps in. Some of your depression, no doubt, comes from quitting the opiates after sending huge doses to your receptors for a long time. But, what I understand, is eventually, natural endorphins, do come back, it just takes time. This feeling will not be there forever, I guarantee you. Exercise, is supposed to be, one of the main ways to encourage this to happen. I believe that you said in an earlier entry that you were "hitting the gym". You can even just take daily one hour brisk walks and that will do it, so don't feel, that it must be the gym and "all or nothing" as every little bit counts. Do what you can every day. I am a dog sitter, so I found, that walking the dogs daily has helped my moods, not to mention my weight. :)
Again, you are doing a wonderful job, please don't give up at all. This is the most difficult time, a time that, relapses can happen. But, not, in you, you have gone through hell and came right back and I am sure that "fluffy pink and white cloud" of feeling good just being alive is just around the corner for you.
"Hugs"!!!!!!!!
emily's mom :wave:
You have done really well and I'm sure will continue to do so as we, here on this board, will be watching. :nono:
This is probably the hardest time for you, and while the sneezes and watery eyes are annoying (and truly, I cannot imagine, why they are lasting so **** long!) but, it is the "restless leg syndrome" that is the very worst!! I remember having this and covering up with a quilt (down) that had been in a cold room. I don't know why, but this cold quilt on my legs eased that feeling, enough, that I was able to get to sleep. Now, I'm not suggesting, putting your comforter in the refrigerator, but....I take a medication called Seroquel, it was given to me by my Psychiatrist whom I see for depression (chronic) and for adult ADD. It is a medication, which is used for Psycotic patients, however, they take about 800 mg. a day. He has prescribed from 25 mgs to 75mgs, as much as I need, really, for sleep. It does not act like a sleeping pill really, rather it makes you feel a normal drowsiness from which you fall into a nice sleep (with dreams) and wake in the morning with no "sleeping pill hangover", you just feel nice and rested. I don't know if you can get this medication from a regular family doctor. You probably, need a Psychiatrist, to prescribe it. But, as you know, we were all able to get our DOC, which usually was not prescribed (well not in the amounts, we were gulping down) so perhaps, you could really work on getting it, not illegally, of course, but if you could see and addiction doc. or Psych. for a consultation and explained all that you have been through and accomplished on your own, you could get a prescription for the Seroquel. Maybe your own doctor would prescribe it if you told him that you need it for sleep. If you are not getting a good nights sleep, then everything else falls apart, and depression creeps in. Some of your depression, no doubt, comes from quitting the opiates after sending huge doses to your receptors for a long time. But, what I understand, is eventually, natural endorphins, do come back, it just takes time. This feeling will not be there forever, I guarantee you. Exercise, is supposed to be, one of the main ways to encourage this to happen. I believe that you said in an earlier entry that you were "hitting the gym". You can even just take daily one hour brisk walks and that will do it, so don't feel, that it must be the gym and "all or nothing" as every little bit counts. Do what you can every day. I am a dog sitter, so I found, that walking the dogs daily has helped my moods, not to mention my weight. :)
Again, you are doing a wonderful job, please don't give up at all. This is the most difficult time, a time that, relapses can happen. But, not, in you, you have gone through hell and came right back and I am sure that "fluffy pink and white cloud" of feeling good just being alive is just around the corner for you.
"Hugs"!!!!!!!!
emily's mom :wave: