Boy, I really want to thank you guys for being so kind. I thank you from my heart and I mean it. I feel like I can get back on track and stay there with you out there somewhere. Energy is all we are and its everywhere so I practice seeing you sitting next to me when I'm reading and typing. I have to get the RX filled tomorrow. It's called Relafen and the nurse said it is not addictive in any way. I'm back at 20 of the hydros and I'm a little scared to move down to 18 again right now because that's when everything blew up in my face the last time. I'm going to wait till I start the new pill and go slow. It's good to know that you guys went through this too. Jerri you are a good friend to be so nice and you don't even know me. And Phil you really helped me with what you said. I felt a little jealous, though, but not in a bad way, just I want to be where you are. I can only imagine how good you must feel not watching when the next pill is due. I know I can have that feeling too if I'm more careful. I appreciate you other two who wrote me too. I can't believe how many really good people there are here who take time to write and share all they know about this nasty thing. I don't think I have to switch to other drugs, I mean narcotics though. It seems the nurse thought I could eventually get by with the Relafen sometime. I thought a lot about what happened to me and I think I just got too cocky because I went down to the 20 just like that and I didn't have any wd so I think I thought I had it made. Even on 18 I wasn't hurting and I didn't have any wd but I just kept looking at the clock to see when was the next one I could take. This is crazy because I was okay. I was just so focused on the pills. And I still am, Phil, like you said about watching the clock and so on. Well, I know you all have a lot of things to do so I won't rattle on anymore. I just want to say thank you again and I really mean it from my heart. I'll be looking for more good words from you all and I'm saying some special prayers for you Jerri and Philster, not to slight anyone else though. So take care of yourselves and I will be back on tomorrow no matter what. I don't think I'll have any problem for a while but I have to watch so I don't get too sure of myself. Just one last thing, Jerri, I was touched in my heart when you said you were worried about me. I think that is the nicest thing someone can do for someone because it shows they really care even though we are miles away. Phil, you too. If you say prayers, then say some for me because I do for you and either way I'm sending you lots of positive energy. Thanks again.