25th June 2004
It's SOOOOO great to "see" all of you, and to get such awesome updates!
Michelle, I am so very proud of you, my friend!!!! 4 weeks is an amazing amount of time to be "clean"...you just keep on doing what you're doing, girlfriend! God is good and He is with you every step of the way! As far as your health concerns, please keep us updated and try not to worry about it until you know exactly what's going on. I know, I know...easy said than done. In the meantime, I'm praying for you!
Banker...Wooohoooo on the MAN situation! ;) Sounds awesome! Please keep us posted on that! As far as the weight part...I was 165lbs when I delivered my last baby...just 7 months ago. I'm now 105 lbs if I'm lucky. For the most part, I lost all the weight by exercising and weight lifting at the gym with my hubby several days a week...that was until I fell into the "pill trap". I didn't exercise at all this past month, but of course I lost even more weight because of my love affair with pain pills. Do it the healthy way....exercise and eat right...you can do it, girl! As far as my usage...I was taking 10-15 (at least...I stopped counting out of shame)Norco's (10/325) a day for a little over a month. I know that wasn't a long period of time, but the amount for a person that is 5'5" and weighs 105lbs is A LOT! Don't get me wrong, I DID have withdrawals...just not the horrible, feeling-like-I'm-dying withdrawals I had when I went through this the first time (I was then taking the same amount of pills, but for 4-5 months). I had major insomnia for 2 nights (even tylenol PM wouldn't knock me out), I had major diarrhea for two days, and I sweat so much I probably lost another 5lbs. just from that. My blood pressure was REALLY high too...but fortunately I'm already on propranolol (a beta-blocker..I believe it's similar to clonidine)...I just had to double...maybe even triple my dosage during the withdrawals. It was only really bad for the first two days though, and just got better and better after that. I was amazed...I was still able to function, take care of my 5 kids (ages 7 months to 8 yrs), keep my house clean, have dinner ready, etc. I contribute it all to the power of prayer...before (the first time I went through this)...I had pretty much shut God out of my life out of shame, but this time I knew I couldn't do it without Him. I truly believe by praying for mercy and forgiveness, He spared me the horrible, horrible w/d's that I was prepared for. Okay, so I'm rambling on and on.....I'm still just amazed and I feel SO good knowing that I'm not in the grips of those evil little pills anymore.....
sadsister/BCBurnabyBabe/kevbo~ thanks a million for the encouraging words! I've missed all of you so very much, and I can completely relate to everything sweet DallasAlice said about this board and it's members.
Last but not least....
DallasAlice...I'm SOOOOO glad to see you here again...you sound so good and so positive and upbeat. I can relate to so many things that you wrote...and I truly appreciate the way everyone on this board cares about one another. I've been thinking of you all this week, and praying that you would indeed come back and join us. Please keep us updated..and know that many people here care so very much about you!
Ok....sorry for the novel. I wish each and everyone of you the very best, but I'm sticking around so you're not getting rid of me yet! ;) Temptation is always there, and I don't want to ever forget how easy it is to fall into that trap. My life is so wonderful without pills, I really don't know why I ever thought I needed them in the first place. I can't say that I don't crave one (or 10!) every once in awhile, but I'm so determined to overcome all of that in time. I have 5 beautiful children that need their Mommy to be around for a long, long time.....and I want to be here for them and be the very best I can possibly be.
Love ya all!!!! ;)
Michelle, I am so very proud of you, my friend!!!! 4 weeks is an amazing amount of time to be "clean"...you just keep on doing what you're doing, girlfriend! God is good and He is with you every step of the way! As far as your health concerns, please keep us updated and try not to worry about it until you know exactly what's going on. I know, I know...easy said than done. In the meantime, I'm praying for you!
Banker...Wooohoooo on the MAN situation! ;) Sounds awesome! Please keep us posted on that! As far as the weight part...I was 165lbs when I delivered my last baby...just 7 months ago. I'm now 105 lbs if I'm lucky. For the most part, I lost all the weight by exercising and weight lifting at the gym with my hubby several days a week...that was until I fell into the "pill trap". I didn't exercise at all this past month, but of course I lost even more weight because of my love affair with pain pills. Do it the healthy way....exercise and eat right...you can do it, girl! As far as my usage...I was taking 10-15 (at least...I stopped counting out of shame)Norco's (10/325) a day for a little over a month. I know that wasn't a long period of time, but the amount for a person that is 5'5" and weighs 105lbs is A LOT! Don't get me wrong, I DID have withdrawals...just not the horrible, feeling-like-I'm-dying withdrawals I had when I went through this the first time (I was then taking the same amount of pills, but for 4-5 months). I had major insomnia for 2 nights (even tylenol PM wouldn't knock me out), I had major diarrhea for two days, and I sweat so much I probably lost another 5lbs. just from that. My blood pressure was REALLY high too...but fortunately I'm already on propranolol (a beta-blocker..I believe it's similar to clonidine)...I just had to double...maybe even triple my dosage during the withdrawals. It was only really bad for the first two days though, and just got better and better after that. I was amazed...I was still able to function, take care of my 5 kids (ages 7 months to 8 yrs), keep my house clean, have dinner ready, etc. I contribute it all to the power of prayer...before (the first time I went through this)...I had pretty much shut God out of my life out of shame, but this time I knew I couldn't do it without Him. I truly believe by praying for mercy and forgiveness, He spared me the horrible, horrible w/d's that I was prepared for. Okay, so I'm rambling on and on.....I'm still just amazed and I feel SO good knowing that I'm not in the grips of those evil little pills anymore.....
sadsister/BCBurnabyBabe/kevbo~ thanks a million for the encouraging words! I've missed all of you so very much, and I can completely relate to everything sweet DallasAlice said about this board and it's members.
Last but not least....
DallasAlice...I'm SOOOOO glad to see you here again...you sound so good and so positive and upbeat. I can relate to so many things that you wrote...and I truly appreciate the way everyone on this board cares about one another. I've been thinking of you all this week, and praying that you would indeed come back and join us. Please keep us updated..and know that many people here care so very much about you!
Ok....sorry for the novel. I wish each and everyone of you the very best, but I'm sticking around so you're not getting rid of me yet! ;) Temptation is always there, and I don't want to ever forget how easy it is to fall into that trap. My life is so wonderful without pills, I really don't know why I ever thought I needed them in the first place. I can't say that I don't crave one (or 10!) every once in awhile, but I'm so determined to overcome all of that in time. I have 5 beautiful children that need their Mommy to be around for a long, long time.....and I want to be here for them and be the very best I can possibly be.
Love ya all!!!! ;)