7th December 2005
I sounded like you over 20 years ago. I still do.
Where do you want to be in 20 years? On this board as an addict? It wasn't my dream at 19 to be a forty-something addict. But I am.
You can quit now or quit later. The longer you do it the harder it is to quit. Bad habits die slowly. Old habits don't want to die.
Dilaudid (hydromorphone) is powerful stuff. It's 10 times the power of hydrocodone and morphine. Avoid it. Addiction to that stuff is hell on earth. Trust me - i've been there.
Hydrocodone (Vicodin, Lortab) and morphine are about the same in the body and are both quite addictive and equally dangerous. I'm strung out on hydro now. It's evil stuff.
Darvocet/Darvon are propoxyphene - in the methadone family - and although it's the lesser of these evils it's addictive too. It is evil.
So you're pill poppin for the high. At 19 that's not unusual. What scares me most is that you don't seem to know much about what you're taking or the consequences of what happens when you take too much for too long - or get caught with those.
You know what to do. Quit. Now.
What are you taking now? Today? How much? What happens when you don't take any for a day?
Do you have any friends or relatives that know about your habit that would be sympathetic to your cause? If you have someone willing to knowingly help you then one option is to travel somewhere for a few days or a week - let your friend drive you - don't drive yourself - and only bring enough pills to taper off safely. Go somewhere you can't buy more. You'll quit. You won't have any other option. The challenge is not getting high the day you return. Can you do that?
I did that a few times when I was your age and it "worked" for me - at least I got off the drug. My problem was that I went back to it a few weeks or months later. So you may want to get into AA or NA. And most importantly - change your friends! "New places and new faces."
Where do you want to be in 20 years? On this board as an addict? It wasn't my dream at 19 to be a forty-something addict. But I am.
You can quit now or quit later. The longer you do it the harder it is to quit. Bad habits die slowly. Old habits don't want to die.
Dilaudid (hydromorphone) is powerful stuff. It's 10 times the power of hydrocodone and morphine. Avoid it. Addiction to that stuff is hell on earth. Trust me - i've been there.
Hydrocodone (Vicodin, Lortab) and morphine are about the same in the body and are both quite addictive and equally dangerous. I'm strung out on hydro now. It's evil stuff.
Darvocet/Darvon are propoxyphene - in the methadone family - and although it's the lesser of these evils it's addictive too. It is evil.
So you're pill poppin for the high. At 19 that's not unusual. What scares me most is that you don't seem to know much about what you're taking or the consequences of what happens when you take too much for too long - or get caught with those.
You know what to do. Quit. Now.
What are you taking now? Today? How much? What happens when you don't take any for a day?
Do you have any friends or relatives that know about your habit that would be sympathetic to your cause? If you have someone willing to knowingly help you then one option is to travel somewhere for a few days or a week - let your friend drive you - don't drive yourself - and only bring enough pills to taper off safely. Go somewhere you can't buy more. You'll quit. You won't have any other option. The challenge is not getting high the day you return. Can you do that?
I did that a few times when I was your age and it "worked" for me - at least I got off the drug. My problem was that I went back to it a few weeks or months later. So you may want to get into AA or NA. And most importantly - change your friends! "New places and new faces."