Well my doctor told me to take these pills called prometrium to help start my period, and she said that if it doesnt start, then we will have to do lab test which is pretty scary. I actually wish my mom thought i was just naturally skinny, i avoid coming home from work when they are still awake because i know i will be hounded to eat something. I can not eat when people make me eat, even if i was planning on eating something, i usually change my mind when they are asking me to because i feel really uncomfortable. I am so ashamed of some of the things i do, like the other day my parents were making me eat lasgna, so i took a plate full, went up stairs, wrapped it in a paper towel and a bag, and then threw it in the trash, how pathetic is that?? Ive been trying to force myself to eat during more because its so hard to eat at nights, so im proud of myself for that. But each day is a struggle and dont feel bad about crying because i had myself a good cry the other night too... it just all kinda hit me and i feel so lonely in all of this. Im glad i have you guys to talk to to and vent. keep me posted em on how you are doing! i love hearing from u!
liza