Well it won again!!!! I am staying home this weekend instead of enjoying a great weekend with my bf and his family. This anxiety is making me not want to do ANYTHING!!!!! Also, since I can’t live a normal life I get extremely depressed about it. I wish that my life was the way it used to be. When I had friends, was the life of the party and I was always up for anything. I’m not that person anymore. I can’t even get the slightest bit close to that person. I am going to the doctor on July 8th and I decided that this is it for me and I definitely need some meds. I have heard great things about Wellbutrin and I want to try that first. They prescribed me paxil about 8 months ago but I just was too scared to take that. I heard way too many bad things about it. So now I am probably going to have another bad weekend. How come we could want to be so normal and do the things we used to do but this depression and anxiety hold us back? Sometimes it feels like it isn’t even real and it really is just all in my head. Then I hate myself even more for doing these strange things. Sorry just need to let these feelings out.

Thanks.

princess- hi sorry you feel this way- i highly reccoment taking the paxil. i have been on it for about 6 weeks and it really has done wonders for me. i can now go out like i used to and mingle with people. i had no side effects and know plenty of people who have praised the effects of paxil. keep me posted as to how your doing if you start the paxil

happy 4th