:angel: I have severe daily chronic pain from a fused neck and back. I was on Oxycontin and Oxycodone for 4 years to control it. Last year due to severe stress and my doctor ignoring it, I started to overuse my Oxycodone. I tried to tell my doc but she kept saying if I was she would throw me out of the practice and cut me off so I got scared. Well she found about and did cut me off cold turkey and throw me out just like the trash. Now no one in my small town will accept me as a patient and I am in so much pain (I went through severe withdrawel as well at home alone, which my doc said would not happen, haha)and I feel like a felon or something. How can I get a new doctor and how do I explain what happened without predjudicing them before we get anywhere? I have on my own sought out and started seeing an abuse counselor for the overuse and stress. Even he agrees I need to be on pain meds and he will monitor me on them if I could just find a willing doctor who would understand. I know I screwed up but in over 10 years on and off and the last 5 of daily pain med use I only had a problem once. I know the price for messing up and will do everything I can never to do it again but no one seems to want to help. Anyone have any advice?

First off I want to say that I am sorry that you have to go through all of this. I was on oxycodone (not oxycotin) after an intense surgery a couple years ago I as cut off cold turkey and went through HORRIBLE withdrawl. I know what it feels like and would not wish it on anyone.
Secondly most respectable doctors will not just hand out narcotics to patients. Have you been to a pain management doctor? I go to a pain doctor for my fibromyalgia and I have had to meet w/ physical therapists, been given less addictive drugs for pain and also met with psychiatrists etc. I find it hard to beleive that the doctors have blacklisted you etc. or is it matter of needing a referral and your PCP not wanting to give you one. You could call your local hospitals and see if there are any pain management doctors in the area or call your insurance company and ask wehre you should go.

Good luck. I hope you can get some help soon and get off of the constant meds.

God Bless,
Amanda

I have been seeing a substance abuse counselor to work out why I overused my meds and he even believes I need to be back on them. He is willing to help me manage them but I can't get any doctor to give them to me now. I have my town's Indigent health care fund which is like Medicaid. No one will accept it for payment and none of the local doctor's will even see me as I think they all know what I did. It is a very small and gossipy town and hospital. I have tried doctors as far away as 60 miles and none will take my health coverage. I feel trapped and so incredibly frustrated. I am not solely trying to get narcotics here it is just they were the only thing I have ever tried that even closely made my pain barable. I have and would try again anything suggested to get through the pain if someone would give me the opportunity. I feel like a lowlife, no account piece of garbage because I screwed up. It seems that the doctor's here feel the same about me as they won't even see me. I am depressed and in so much pain I don't want to wake up anymore. I am not suicidle as I am a Christian and would not take that step, I just wish I would go in my sleep if this is my life. Can anyone understand and offer any other suggestions? My abuse counselor agrees with me that it is overwhelming and he too is frustrated and he tried to talk my old doctor into helping to no avail. I go to the pain clinic 40 miles away and they put me on Cymbalta which is an anti depressant and will only give me Lortab 5 mg. of which I get 3 a day. They don't help and I am getting pain in my kidneys and liver and they raised my blood pressure as well. This is why the old doctors only gave me things without Tylenol before because the stuff with aspirin or Tylenol always did the same thing to me. I told the doctor this but he claimed that will keep me from abusing the Lortab. My abuse counselor tried to talk to him and promised to monitor me if he would give me back atleast the oxycodone but he refused and stated he did not really even want to treat me as he prefers to do only proceedures like trigger point injections and surgical stuff (which I have had and it did not help) so I am stuck there too. I really only want relief, not just drugs but the oxycodone and oxycontin (which ironically the same pain clinic doctor who won't give them too me now originally prescribed stating I should not take Tylenol or asprin based meds as they cause too many other problems long term, as well as to state I would need pain meds the rest of my life to control the pain as my body can't deal with it on it's own because it no longer makes it's own dopamine or endorphines to deal with the pain!!!) Can anyone see the predicament here? I feel like I am running in circles and I realize I screwed up by abusing the oxycodone to begin with, but I am getting help for that and have the abuse counse :angel: lor agreeing I need to be back on oxycodone and the anti depressants but even he hasn't been able to convince this doctor to help me. Any suggestions or anyone else gone through or is going through the same kind of thing over meds? I need any help anyone has? Are there any doctors out there willing to help? I now understand why Dr.Kavorkian had a practice and why people felt it was their only hope. Being left in terrible pain every single day and having no one understand even with the fact I messed my regiment up (which my abuse counselor and my doctors have said happens due to depression and the fact the meds Are addictive) is overwhelming and leaves me truly not wanting to wake up for yet another day of it anymore. Please help me someone, somewhere. I just need another chance or a way out.