Hi, I am addicted to hydrocodone. I was in treatment in 2004 and it wasn't easy at all but this time it is a total nightmare. I started an outpatient program last week and was clean for a week before the cravings got so very bad that I had to get more. I am severly depressed and full of shame. I feel like such a failure in life. I am also addicted to Neurontin and I tell you, the withdrawals from that are 10 times worse than the hydros. If I run out, I feel like I am going to go completely off the deep end. All I want to do is lay in the bed and stare at the tv. I just don't feel like doing anything. I am so scared that I may never be able to recover. I have withdrawn from all of my family and my parents and sister are so very supportive. I just needed to get all of this off of my chest. Can anyone send me a few words of advice, encouragement or anything?