7th May 2006
Well I didnt have a great weekend not beating myself up but I did end up taking 1/2 of a hydro. Not because I wanted too. Yesterday when I was carrying up laundry 3 floors from basement I blew my knee out!!! I'm in such pain and agony right now but not taking anything for it besides advil right now. I called my dr and he is going to call my orthopedic dr to see what to do I told him I no longer wanted to take lortab for pain. Yesterday I tried Mobic, Naproxyn, advil, celebrex you name I took it but nothing worked for the pain so I finally broke down. I felt like a failure. I still do. I need a knee replacement but have no ins. they say I make to much $ for anything which is odd since I dont work and have no income!!! Plus with my age 30 they dont like to do it just keep me comfortable which got me in this mess to begin with I liked to be REALLY comfortable! So I will keep you all posted for now I put my brace on took my advil and elevated it. My knee caps are in the wrong spot so they have rubbed at the cartlidge away so I'm left with bone on bone when I walk most of the time I just deal with it. I have my whole life up until I got those damn pills! So please dont think I let anyone down, I'm not perfect but the way I look at it is I could have taken alot more than 1/2 so I showed some control!!! How is everyone else doing? Hopefully better than me!! :(
