9th September 2003
Hi,
I am Dave From New York City.
My mother has had MS for the last 20 years.
She just came out of the hospital after having steroid injections for 3 days.
But, she is still very stiff and can hardly walk.
It has been destroying me.
I was not a good son to her.
I grew up with a bad crowd and became a heavy drug user.
My father was a working drunk and abused my mother.
She had a nervous breakdown in 83'
That landed her in the hospital.
That is where they gave her anti psychotic drugs.
These drugs made her very stiff.
We later found out she had MS.
I got in deeper and deeper with drugs.
I found myself as a street junkie.
I was a heroin addict and later went to prison for 7 years, for drug related charges.
My mother got worse while I was away.
I am now on a Methadone program.
I am clean from illicit drugs and I am getting married to a lovely women in Oct.
The problem is, I moved out of my mothers house about 4 months ago.
This is when she needs me the most.
I am only 20 minutes away from The Big Apple.
I feel bad that I am not there for her 24/7.
On the other hand, I am 35 years old and needed to make a life for myself.
The steroid treatments she got, don't seem to be helping her.
They want her to use a walker, she has too much pride to use one.
They said that want to try chemo on her, even though she does not have cancer.
The treatment will last 2 years, once every 3 months.
I don't know what to do or what to suggest, for her.
She just wants to be comfortable.
She likes to smoke, get her hair done and read.
I am very depressed that it has come to this.
I feel, that if I was not as bad as I was, when I was young and dumb.
She would be not be in such dire straights.
Anyhow,
I just wanted to share my story and see what type of feedback anyone can offer.
Thanks for reading my story.
[This message has been edited by DAVE_NYC (edited 09-09-2003).]
I am Dave From New York City.
My mother has had MS for the last 20 years.
She just came out of the hospital after having steroid injections for 3 days.
But, she is still very stiff and can hardly walk.
It has been destroying me.
I was not a good son to her.
I grew up with a bad crowd and became a heavy drug user.
My father was a working drunk and abused my mother.
She had a nervous breakdown in 83'
That landed her in the hospital.
That is where they gave her anti psychotic drugs.
These drugs made her very stiff.
We later found out she had MS.
I got in deeper and deeper with drugs.
I found myself as a street junkie.
I was a heroin addict and later went to prison for 7 years, for drug related charges.
My mother got worse while I was away.
I am now on a Methadone program.
I am clean from illicit drugs and I am getting married to a lovely women in Oct.
The problem is, I moved out of my mothers house about 4 months ago.
This is when she needs me the most.
I am only 20 minutes away from The Big Apple.
I feel bad that I am not there for her 24/7.
On the other hand, I am 35 years old and needed to make a life for myself.
The steroid treatments she got, don't seem to be helping her.
They want her to use a walker, she has too much pride to use one.
They said that want to try chemo on her, even though she does not have cancer.
The treatment will last 2 years, once every 3 months.
I don't know what to do or what to suggest, for her.
She just wants to be comfortable.
She likes to smoke, get her hair done and read.
I am very depressed that it has come to this.
I feel, that if I was not as bad as I was, when I was young and dumb.
She would be not be in such dire straights.
Anyhow,
I just wanted to share my story and see what type of feedback anyone can offer.
Thanks for reading my story.
[This message has been edited by DAVE_NYC (edited 09-09-2003).]