15th June 2007
I've been experiencing anxiety for about 3-4 years now. It just keeps getting worse and worse! I feel like I am on a downward spiral. For the past year, it has gotten extreme! It started with a breathing problem that doctor's couldn't figure out. After an intense workout one day, I all of a sudden felt an inability to get a satisfying breath. I've lived with this condition for two years. I've had several tests done and everything appears fine. I then experienced an injury to my ribs that the doctor's couldn't figure out. I was in pain nonstop for a year before a doctor finally was able to help me. I'm still in pain and still searching for proper treatment for my ribs. Now, I feel like anything that happens to me cannot be fixed. I feel like I am going to die all the time. I'm worried that my heart is going to stop if I exercise. I'm worried about every single ache or pain that I feel for fear that I have a disease. And I'm in a constant state of worry ALL-OF-THE-TIME. I'm a computer technician for work, so I work on the computer all day and whenever it's slow, I research all of the pains that I still feel in my ribs, or illnesses that may apply to me due to this breathing problem I still suffer with. I am constantly aware of my heart beating, and my breathing and the way I feeling. I feel like my entire personality is changing! I'm only 26 years old and feel as though I'm falling apart. I used to be so care-free, and so fun loving. I'm not that person anymore. I just worry about EVERYTHING. It's completely ruining my life. I am in need of some sort of medication. I've tried counseling and it hasn't worked. I've tried tapes and coping skills, etc. I've also tried different medications, but all the ones that I've tried have made me very tired and gain weight. I don't want to be too tired to function! I've tried Zoloft, Prozac, Celexia, Xanax, klonopin, Luvox (Fluvoxamine), Nuerontin, and ALL have made me tired and gain weight. I've had to go off all of them. Is there ANYTHING that doesn't cause fatigue and make you gain weight??
