Sometimes i feel like a battery, just here to supply others with life!
I go to work, sit all day and type on this computer, go home, watch a little tv and then sleep. I do this everyday... To me, this is not living, but anxiety has it's way with me! i don't want to go out because i worry about money... I am not myself anymore and don't want to bore others or be bored by them. I feel fake when i am around other people, but hate to be alone... I get to see my kids two days out of the week and am excited when they do come, but after they get there, the anxiety sets in and ruins my time with them. Now don't get me wrong, I want to live, but this to me is just too montonious. Life should be savioured and enjoyed, but having this disease has cause me to lose my family and friends... Some days i just want to pack it all in and leave, but where do i go?
I take xanax and luvox, now the xanax helps with anxiety, but i think it tend to depress a person. and the luvox is a upper, but i think it tends to make the anxiety worse... Is there a balance?

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Steve