10th April 2006
Around lasty May I started posting here because my husband had PC. He had a radical June 6th 05. I was so happy that the cancer was operable and the drs felt they got it all. He had negative margins. SInce his surgery, we have had no sexual contact. He's had Viagra, Levitra, the the pump. He hasn't even wanted to talk about it tome. We got to the point where we didn't even cuddle or hug anymore and he never wanted to discuss the problem. Instead we swept it under the rug. I love him anyway and night after night I laid beside him never mentioned it because it made him uncomfortable, it was my way of saying that it did not matter to me that we could not have sex and I loved him anyeay. Well, he filed for divorce 4 weeks ago telling me that he has fallenout of love for me and does not feel affection for me. When I talk to him now he mentions that he's 'half a man'. My heart is just crushed!
