Thanks jam and constant and californey, you have no idea how much your words of encouragement mean to me. At about 4:00 today I got up the nerve and told my husband we needed to get the kids outside for a walk. I strapped the 10 month old on to me in the snugli and my husband pushed the next two in the stroller (the oldest was at a birthday party) and we walked to the school playground and played awhile and came back. It was the best thing I could have done. The sunshine and fresh air and exercise were probably the best natural medicine I could have taken. Tonight I have been much better. The chills are subsiding, and the immodium seems to really be doing its job (I hope I haven't taken too much!). I do have restless legs now, but I've actually had those all my life. I have some muscle relaxants and I'm going to take one of those now to help with my legs and to get me to sleep. I was also able to talk to my hubby some, and as usual he was wonderful. He is actually a family physician, and is completely understanding of the depression. I told him I felt I had a problem with the Lortab, and we talked to his partner (my family physician) and agreed to not prescribe it for me any more. I was taking it for migraines. Now I just have to hope I don't get another one. I can't take the normal migraine meds like imitrex because of a heart condition. We do have a backup plan, in case I get a severe one, its just that it involves taking another narcotic and I really want to avoid that. But it's one that only they can give me, and it's an agonist/antagonist, not just an agonist like Lortab. So I feel like I'm not on my own anymore, and that's the best feeling of all. Anyways, I'm rambling again, but I'll check in again tomorrow. Ice, I hope you are doing OK. It really does get better, I'm already to day 3 and I can see the light (although just barely)! Post when you can! Thanks again to everyone else!

Bridget