Mart - thank you for posting - it means so much to me. Have you ever taken imitrex for your migraines? What is your husband doing --- I know he was tapering and I thought he already was honest w/the doc but I guess not. Is it hydros that he's addicted to or something else? Do you have any idea how many he's taking? Would Sub work for him? How long has he been addicted? I'm sure you have told all of this but I went back and looked briefly and didn't see anything. How is your 'shopping'? And I'm sorry you are having such bad headaches and you are having to deal with this. I'll be praying for you too and keep us posted on the doctor's appt. Are you going with him? I would just to make sure he is honest. Something has got to change - but you know you cannot control him and the thing is, he cannot control the drugs either. He has GOT to get into some sort of a program or something. He cannot do it alone... that's why we are addicts. We cannot control our drugs.

Michelle - can you believe that I felt so moved in a church so different from how I was raised? It was just unbelievable. And I'm not taking the meds anymore. I absolutely could not function. I'm just taking Lexepro, Sub and xanax. He hasn't given me the topomax - just told me to do research on it and if I wanted it - he would give it to me. I'm so scared though to take it because it says it causes you to be really tired and I'm already so sensitive to things making me ZONK out. I don't know what to do. I may go back and talk to him when I get paid again and see what he says. Maybe since I'm so sensitive to lexepro - I should just come off of it all together and try something else. Seriously, if I don't take it in the a.m.... I cannot function the next day. One time I did and I fell asleep in a motivational speaker class. Thank God my manager knows that I take meds for depression and anxiety because she confronted me with it. Apparantly, several other VPs and Senior VPs noticed I was SLEEPING in the class when everyone else was up yelling 'FANTASTIC'. It's kind of funny now to think about it.

Anyway - there were so many people there today... I didn't notice any cuties. Well, now that's a lie. In the kids' classrooms, there were some cute guys, but I think they were a little too young for me. But... they do have a singles group that meets so who knows. What is the purpose of that? Why do they split up the singles from the married couples? I don't get it. It is almost embarrassing to say 'Yes, i'm single and I was a failure at marriage' lol 'oh, and not just once, but twice... but the second one shouldn't count 'cause it was only for two weeks and we had it annuled'. lol 'Oh, and did I mention I'm an addict and on Sub?' --- "Now, who wants to date me?" I'm just kidding, I have to laugh at my crazy past... Anyway, I'm excited!!! Thanks for helping me get through it.

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Mart - thank you for posting - it means so much to me. Have you ever taken imitrex for your migraines?

Hi Banker:

Sorry I didn't respond yesterday; things got really busy around my house yesterday. Anyway, as far Imitrex goes; I tried it a few years ago and unfortunately I had trouble keeping it down. Now it seems I am having the same problem with keeping the Maxalt down. I saw my Doctor today and he wants be to have another MRI and I guess I will start taking the Pamelor and just deal with the fatigue. The Pamelor/Maxalt combo seemed to work best for me and I also have Systemic Lupus so my Neurologist is concerned about how I will respond to Topamax. Anyway, I guess I will just have see..

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What is your husband doing --- I know he was tapering and I thought he already was honest w/the doc but I guess not. Is it hydros that he's addicted to or something else? Do you have any idea how many he's taking? Would Sub work for him? How long has he been addicted? I'm sure you have told all of this but I went back and looked briefly and didn't see anything. How is your 'shopping'? And I'm sorry you are having such bad headaches and you are having to deal with this. I'll be praying for you too and keep us posted on the doctor's appt. Are you going with him? I would just to make sure he is honest. Something has got to change - but you know you cannot control him and the thing is, he cannot control the drugs either. He has GOT to get into some sort of a program or something. He cannot do it alone... that's why we are addicts. We cannot control our drugs.

My husband was tapering pretty well up until about three weeks ago. We had a huge blow-up because I found Oxy's he had stashed around our bed- room. So, I basically broke down; once I figured out he wasn't tapering like I thought he was. Anyway, now on top of everything else he is having hypertension and edema (a lot of swelling especially around the ankles.) Unfortunately, diabetes and heart disease run in his family and along with that the addiction issues (which is probably contributing) he seems to be having health complications on top of everything else. Basically, all of this is what finally sent me to ALANON; I finally realized I was trying to control everything related to his addiction and it was killing me. I have to say ALANON has helped me to recognize my issues with the need to "control" everything around me; and how in many ways I have been enabling him for quite a while. I do think Subtoxone or Methadone will have to be an option for him. I will let you know what we find out today. I do I love him so much. But, some days I just feel like it would be so much easier to sale our house, get a divorce and take my children far away from this. But, then I see how much they love him. He seems ready to admit he needs help. I know though, ultimately he has take that step. I feel stronger just from attending the meetings. Anyway, I know I have said it before; but I can't say how much I appreciate all of you -- You have all helped me me through some of my darkest times and take steps I never thought I would. Anyway, I will post after his appointment today.
-MJ