Thanks, ive tried welbutrin and buspar, they didnt really help, im currently jus taking prozac and hydroxyzine and valerian.

I do have great difficulty trying to express to her my situation. Shes young and were vastly different culturally so I really dont know how she would respond to it. Id be more incline to tell her more about these things when im there with her than telling her now and decreasing her already diminishing hopes of ever seeing me in person.

Sickofeffexor, she cant come here without obtaining a visa and the only way she can get a visa is me going there. I wouldnt put her through all of the travelling she would have to do alone, shes never been on a plane nor anywhere outside her island. But thanks for the idea.

Lisa I wish it was that easy. I cant find a doctor that would even consider giving me any type of benzo or valium type of medication. I honestly dont know why. I see a new MD on the 22nd but I dont know what he will give me. I just hope it can be something that can help decrease my anxiety to a manageble level. Thats all I really ask. Even now I can feel it and the trip is still 3 weeks away.