Hey guys --Last night was a HUGE milestone for me. I had been taking 1 halcion at night to sleep for the whole detox process. I had switched to 1/2 a few days ago. Then I was sick of them and scared of them at the same time so I went back to Benedryl last night and got a full night sleep!! My stomach is still a mess (bug running around the FAMILY) but other than that I am trudging along. Went to another meeting last night and I am really learning alot from them. I have to drag my butt there, but when I do, I feel better. I HUGE rehab center brings a bus load of patients to our monday night meetings and they have some SERIOUS stories. I used to think it was entertaining, but now I realize we are all the same. Whether you have lived on the street or in a mansion, you are an addict and we all have the same inner soles. Our addictive personalites are alike and dangerous. To think that we are different because of background, race, economic status, is wrong and I feel it gives a person POWER. That is dangerous in a battle in which we are trying to define our own POWERLESSNESS (sp?). Anyway, the mornings are starting to get VERY clear. 3 more days till vacation!!!!! I am so proud of myself for this one. I really am. This will be the first time that I am on vaca with my family in a while that I havent had pills. It really doesnt bother me at all. I am actually looking forward to it. Playing in the sand with my kids or at the pool and not worrying about HOW MUCH I have left or shipping to the island or the FED EX truck intercept!

Life is good right now. DAY BY DAY.

LOVE & STRENGTH to all

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