23rd November 2003
I've had severe sleep disorders and my lastest sleep disorder doc threw out the term Bi Polar but didnt really tell me why he thought that and I blew him off because I never have the Manic part, just depression. then I saw a new psychiatrist who said the same thing and she explained that it was because I dont react normally to drugs. Ones that make other people sleepy, either do nothing, make me agiatated or I need a boat load of them to get to sleep. Just for examples, I cant take demerol, librium, benedryl, trazadone, and to get to sleep I have to take anywhere up to 4*6 mg of Ativan, 30*50 mg of Ambein and 1.25 mg of Halcion (5 pills) to get to sleep. This isnt a matter of tolerance, it's just the way my body works. also she said some bipolar people dont have episodes of mania. am I bipolar? can you really be bipolar without the engergtic waves and euphoria and extremem happiness part? I just figured I suffered from clinical depression all my life. who knows???? well, thanks for any help you can offer.
