Well, as a type, I am ashamed, but also empowered. I quit vics a year ago and did fairly well until I was RXd them again 3 months ago. I was taking about 7/day and most recently, went thru 50 in a matter of one week. I have none left and must do this CT. I hate these pills. Why did I allow them to be RXd...knowing I'm a slave to them?

I have some ambien to take tonight and have already taken 800mg of ibuphropen and 2 tylenols. I do have some flexeril --- would anyone suggest using these to help with the wds for the pain in my legs?

Ugggghhhh....need your support!!

take the flexeril at bed time. they will help you sleep and will relax you. they give you a nasty feeling so you will not get addicted to them. there very powerful. I would take a half a bill as they can cause a hang over in the morning. I am so bummed your starting a new job on the day of your W/D. That is the WORST thing possible as your going to not be lookin to good.

good luck, it happens to all of us. you are not alone. keep posting for help and advice.

SS

Thanks for all the words of support!! Hi there, SS!! I remember "talking" to you a year ago and you always did help me! Thanks!

I just cannot believe what an idiot I am. I took 50 vics in freakin' one week...actually, 6 days. I used to think my little vic problem was ridiculous when 30 would last me a month. All the pill counting, etc...back then was awful. This time, though, I never once counted them. So, I guess that's one step. This time, I just took the darn things like candy...chasing a high that only came with the first dose. OK, well, 3 hrs later, better take 1.5 this time, 3 hrs later, still no buzz, better take 2 more...UGH. I hate those evil pills. Why do I torture myself with them? I KNEW better than to let them give me the darn things in the first place. I KNEW I would take them ALL. I never once said, "Oh, I can handle it"...I KNEW exactly what I would do. That's the rub to me. I have never come clean with my dr about it---I think basically, in my heart of hearts, because I don't want to be labeled as drug seeking. Because what if I REALLY NEED pain meds? Then, what would I do? Does that make any sense?

Anyway, today has gotten better as the day has gone on. I know the worst is to come though. I started my new job today and because I was so busy, never had to focus on my mental being---I WANT a VIC!!! Or, the impossible cramping of my muscles.

Now, I am home...and relieved to be here. I will take the flexeril shortly. I HATE those things because they make me yucky feeling, but if they will help with the muscle aches, I'm taking it!! If I take that now (630), can I still take an ambien before bed?

Love you all!