18th May 2003
Hi!! I'm new here.... I tried to register before but it wouldn't let me. Anyway, I'm finally here.
I have a little over a year clean. My main problem towards the end was muscle relaxers.... I couldn't function without at least 30 a day. I go to a wonderful fellowship and if it wasn't for them, I'd most likely be dead by now.
When I withdrew from the muscle relaxers, I didn't sleep for about 3 months. It was a horrible experience and I never want to do that again.
I get horrible migraines and have tried every pill my doctor could recommend, but none of them helped. None of them that is, until Fioricet (sp??). The nurse warned me that this pill has a narcotic in it. She has no clue that I am an addict but she told me anyway. Later she said it has Codiene (sp again??) in it. Is that a narcotic?? At first I only took them when I had a definite headache. I hated but LOVED the feeling, if that makes ANY sense!!
I have some pretty bad foot problems.... I was out of work for OVER two years. One day I was in a lot of pain at work and got the brilliant idea that since Fioricet is a pain pill, it would be okay to take it for my foot!! I later asked my foot doctor if this was okay (it DID help a bit). He knows I'm an addict.... my family doctor is clueless. Anyway, my foot doctor told me to be very careful. He says they can be like Percocets and that they are highly addictive. Unfortunately they are the only things that have worked on my migraines.
I originally spoke to my sponsor about it after I took it the first time because I was paranoid that I had relapsed since I was high from the pills. She says I did not relapse. I used them what I was supposed to use them for, and that was okay.
Well I suddenly find myself getting LOTS of headaches!! At the very first sign of one, I run for my pills. So far I haven't taken more than 4 a day, and mostly I will only take the 2 I'm supposed to take, but I'm scared anyway. Am I going down that road again? Sometimes I think I am. I am so afraid to tell anybody.... I mean, I just got one year clean!! I don't want to throw that away!! At this point, I'm not even sure if this is considered a relapse or not.... I really hope not. I'm worried and scared because my head is only BEGINNING to hurt when I reach for the pills now. Part of me says I am trying to ward off the headaches before they really start, but the other part of me is wondering why I keep reaching for those pills so quickly. I don't THINK I'm relapsing, am I?? And what should I do? Is it wrong to reach for the pills when I think I'm getting a headache or should I wait till the pain gets worse? I love, love, love the people in my home group, but I don't open up to them enough and I know I should. I thought I'd run this by you guys to see if you had any advice and opinions for me.
I hope this makes at least a little bit of sense!! Thanks so much for any help!!
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~ You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because you're all the same ~
[This message has been edited by sweet little sister (edited 05-18-2003).]
I have a little over a year clean. My main problem towards the end was muscle relaxers.... I couldn't function without at least 30 a day. I go to a wonderful fellowship and if it wasn't for them, I'd most likely be dead by now.
When I withdrew from the muscle relaxers, I didn't sleep for about 3 months. It was a horrible experience and I never want to do that again.
I get horrible migraines and have tried every pill my doctor could recommend, but none of them helped. None of them that is, until Fioricet (sp??). The nurse warned me that this pill has a narcotic in it. She has no clue that I am an addict but she told me anyway. Later she said it has Codiene (sp again??) in it. Is that a narcotic?? At first I only took them when I had a definite headache. I hated but LOVED the feeling, if that makes ANY sense!!
I have some pretty bad foot problems.... I was out of work for OVER two years. One day I was in a lot of pain at work and got the brilliant idea that since Fioricet is a pain pill, it would be okay to take it for my foot!! I later asked my foot doctor if this was okay (it DID help a bit). He knows I'm an addict.... my family doctor is clueless. Anyway, my foot doctor told me to be very careful. He says they can be like Percocets and that they are highly addictive. Unfortunately they are the only things that have worked on my migraines.
I originally spoke to my sponsor about it after I took it the first time because I was paranoid that I had relapsed since I was high from the pills. She says I did not relapse. I used them what I was supposed to use them for, and that was okay.
Well I suddenly find myself getting LOTS of headaches!! At the very first sign of one, I run for my pills. So far I haven't taken more than 4 a day, and mostly I will only take the 2 I'm supposed to take, but I'm scared anyway. Am I going down that road again? Sometimes I think I am. I am so afraid to tell anybody.... I mean, I just got one year clean!! I don't want to throw that away!! At this point, I'm not even sure if this is considered a relapse or not.... I really hope not. I'm worried and scared because my head is only BEGINNING to hurt when I reach for the pills now. Part of me says I am trying to ward off the headaches before they really start, but the other part of me is wondering why I keep reaching for those pills so quickly. I don't THINK I'm relapsing, am I?? And what should I do? Is it wrong to reach for the pills when I think I'm getting a headache or should I wait till the pain gets worse? I love, love, love the people in my home group, but I don't open up to them enough and I know I should. I thought I'd run this by you guys to see if you had any advice and opinions for me.
I hope this makes at least a little bit of sense!! Thanks so much for any help!!
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~ You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because you're all the same ~
[This message has been edited by sweet little sister (edited 05-18-2003).]