Hello,
This is my first time on these boards. Well...it all came to a head last night. I have Ankylosing Sponditus which creates daily pain and discomfort. A little less than a year ago my dr. helped me get on pain med. Long story short...I loved the way I felt like a normal person without pain and before I knew it I was taking about 10 10/325 Edocet a day and on a 75 mg patch of Fet. I reduced the patch and now went from a 25 mg to none but taken Morphine in its place...dr. idea. Last night my meds got cut of because of my getting them filled every 2 weeks instead of every 4 weeks as they were to be taken. Now I am left with nothing except about 8 of those morphine pills left..which going c/t from the endocet has caused huge w/d ....I hate this....I dont know how I became this? I have a great wife, 3 great kids, a great job teaching, and am involved in youth ministry. I know God will see me through this and He still loves me...I just dont feel I can get through this! Any help with w/d? Sleeping? Legs? How long until I start to feel any better at all? I am drinking alot of water...will that help? Please anything!

Feeling like I cant get through,
Jason :(

You have no idea...or maybe you do....what it felt like to see that first reply. I started crying like a baby. I am very scared.
We are not yet on break. We go Monday to Wednesday. That stinks! Actually, I am supposed to speak at the church tomorrow night. Ha! Isnt that just proof that even with Christ in our lives, we arent perfect and are all messed up individuals. I know this will make a great testimony some day. Its just getting to that day that is making me feel insane!
Last night I called the nurse connection and my dr told them to tell me to hold off and call on Monday morning! Monday morning seems like a year away to me right now. Even then, what do I do? I cant just get right back on the Endocet....I cant! Living even one day without the AS pain is not worth living out of a bottle. I feel nuts. My legs are acheing and want to move but dont want to move. Oh man. And then I guess you guys are saying that it will be worse tomorrow...great! What to do?!!! I feel so weak right now. Thanks so much for being here with me. I feel alone. But you show I am not...

J

Well my Dr. finally called and get this...their answer was MORE ENDOCET!!! Thats right folks...they wanted to give me more Endocet. Wow...talk about temptation striking a blow coming in to hopefully the end of my wds. It took EVERYTHING in me to say..NO......the nurse just sat on the other end of the phone confused. I said "I just went through unreal wds from Friday to now, it showed me how controlling this med is and I NEVER want to go through that again!!! EVER!!!" I told her I wanted to try Clonidine for the rest of my wd process to get this out of my system and not have them again. She talked to the dr and she told me to just go the ER. Thanks! So in other words...if you wont take more of our demon drugs...get out of our hair! Ok...fine....thats what I am about to do. First test...passed! Now...the rest of my life to get to!
On my way to the ER folks! God speed all!
J