Where do I start? I’m new to this board. My name is Denise and I am 31 yr old female from NY. I have suffered from anxiety attacks since junior high school. It got to the point where I couldn’t go to school and they had to home school me. Over the years I have managed. I have to give you some History for you to better understand what I am going through right now. When I got out of High School I started having Seizures. The doctors put me on Dilantin and Depakote to control the seizures. Cat-scans, and EEG’s ruled out Epilepsy and the Dr chalked it up to seizures caused by stress. I have been seizure free almost 6 yrs until last Monday. My driver’s license was taken away and I am going for more tests. That was enough to knock my anxiety levels back through the roof. Then On Thursday my father was diagnosed with Congestive heart failure. He’s 55 yrs old how could this happen? The Dr put him on meds and advised him to stay in bed. He has another appointment after Thanksgiving. So much is running through my head. I can’t lose my father. I have this feeling like something heavy is just sitting on my chest. I feel like I want to just run and cry. I think about it all day, everyday. Not to mention, I have a 32 yr old brother who is mentally retarded and lives at home with mom and Dad. I promised my parents years ago that I would take care of him god for bid something happen to them. I keep thinking about how I am going to do it. What if I fail him? I REFUSE to allow my brother to going into a home where he knows no one. My anxiety is to the point where I keep looking up my father’s condition and thinking the worst. Im so fixated on worrying about the future I can’t concentrate on today. I wish I could just run, anywhere. I cry myself to sleep at night and I really don’t think I can handle anymore bad news. I have been looking up my seizures and what could cause them online and I had to stop myself because I was convincing myself I have a brain tumor that the cats-can couldn’t find it. What can I do? I really could use some advice. I have always been an outlet for my friends to vent to and I would give them advice. I worry about everything and anything. I can’t take hearing anything negative anymore something really tiny affects me like it’s a major problem. My sister was telling me about how rough of a day she had with her toddler and it just made me worry about her…What’s wrong with me?