9th October 2006
Hi all,
I have received so much support from these boards! I don't think I would be where I am without all of you.
As some of you may remember, I posted about the suicide of my ex-husband back in August. He was heavily addicted to demerol, xanax and who knows what else.
Anyway, I also posted recently about just feeling so so (physically) after my addiction recovery. Let me say it has been well over 60 days since taking my last pill and FINALLY Saturday night around 8pm I found myself cleaning the kitchen with all of the energy I had. Usually by 8pm I am dragging. That is when it hit me, doing the dishes. I have my natural energy back! That was also playing with my daughter all day. Physically I finally feel great!
Unfortunately there is a BUT to this. The suicide of my ex has been "haunting" me lately (for lack of better word). Mentally, obviously. We have a daughter together, she is 4, but had been divorced for several years. However, we were together for 10 years.
Why do I keep thinking about this? It isn't like I was still in love with him anymore or anything. I just feel a haunting feeling. That is the only way I can describe it.
Thoughts? Thanks everyone :angel:
Tiffany
I have received so much support from these boards! I don't think I would be where I am without all of you.
As some of you may remember, I posted about the suicide of my ex-husband back in August. He was heavily addicted to demerol, xanax and who knows what else.
Anyway, I also posted recently about just feeling so so (physically) after my addiction recovery. Let me say it has been well over 60 days since taking my last pill and FINALLY Saturday night around 8pm I found myself cleaning the kitchen with all of the energy I had. Usually by 8pm I am dragging. That is when it hit me, doing the dishes. I have my natural energy back! That was also playing with my daughter all day. Physically I finally feel great!
Unfortunately there is a BUT to this. The suicide of my ex has been "haunting" me lately (for lack of better word). Mentally, obviously. We have a daughter together, she is 4, but had been divorced for several years. However, we were together for 10 years.
Why do I keep thinking about this? It isn't like I was still in love with him anymore or anything. I just feel a haunting feeling. That is the only way I can describe it.
Thoughts? Thanks everyone :angel:
Tiffany