thanks everyone who was listening today not much better broke down a couple of time. I cant seem to be able to handle much more. and iam on meds (alot)
wellbutin 200mg bid, lexapro 10mg bid, clonazepam 0.5mg bid ( usually dont take my family doctor thinks i dont need it - he doesnt like the stuff) remeron 30mg at night when needed. also i take imdur30mg qd,zestril 20mg qd, coreg 25mg bid, ibf 800mg prn, lortab 7.5mg prn, asa 81 mg qd and a few more. I know the meds should help but sometimes i just break.... I feel like i am a failure to my kids and husband. I use to be the girl that everyone came to talk to i would listen and try ot make everything right. why cant i do that for my self why do i have to be depressed and lord knows whaat eles i thank i have just crazy!!!!! i feel like falling apart
i use to wont to take of my self stick around for my kids now i thank that my husband and kiks would be bettter off with out me. waht is aperson to do when thay are afraind to try a nother doctor, when the one that they could talk to and you felt like he cared he understtod my feelings when i didnt. put me down to one day a week for work because i couldnt handle everything which at first i was upset--but i understant know--i jusst cant handle being around people anymore ( what worsse i work in a doctores office) i supose to tbe all smile and friendly and i cant anymmore..... my supervisore dosent understand. i gotta go statring to cry not making since;;