I didn't much like that doctor anyway.

I take Dexedrine.

They tried me on Ritalin and Concerta, and Dexedrine is the only one that works with the ADHD and does not make me physically ill. I don't remember if they tried me on anything else though.

I personally don't think it's my medication, only because on days that I forget to take it, I still feel this way.

I guess the best way to describe it is like spraying windex on a window and letting it drip. Eventually, it dries out, but there's still residue. What I'm saying is, the intense part of it eventually went away, but I have these minor but mind-boggling situations that are still kinda stuck here. It's driving me crazy. It just won't leave me alone. The only time I feel better is when I'm sleeping. Even when I'm awake, I'm not quite sure if I'm awake or sleeping. It's like I don't understand why I exist. Then I get into these thoughts in my head about how humans are just animals and that the only part of me that exists is my brain, and that the people around me aren't real, and the conversations I'm hearing aren't really happening, that I'm in a coma and I'm following the sound of the voices just trying to escape it. It's really strange and it scares me so bad.