ugh my pains are worse, today i see pain dr for the 1st time i hope something comes of it

I have to vent cause im angry.... Im diabetic, have a heart murmur, mvp,high blood pressure, diabetic neuropathy, asthma, rheumatoid arthritis & oa along now with depression & anxiety attacks

Im on insulin & byetta for diabetic, lisonopril & ispotin for the heart & bp, prozac & xanax for the depression & anxiety, prevacid cause all the meds mess with my stomache, combivent for the asthma plaquenil, prednisone (was on methrotrexate til had bad reactions & they stopped it) enbrel lidoderem patches, gabapentin, take advil even though my dr prefers i wouldnt was on vicodin but wasnt helping so they recently put me on percocet) I feel like a pharmacy

I live in a complex where its a half mile walk to garbage compactor, mailboxes office, pool... I dont drive & i find i cant walk more then 2 or 3 minutes lately pain in back gets so bad my knees have ggiven out & ive fallen 2x this month, so i talk to my dr about a power chair he says call med suppl store have papers sent he will fill them out but that he doesnt want me living in the chair 24/7, i can understand that & hate the idea of being in a chair but find if im sitting the pain is tolerable where as if i stand for to long i cant bare it, i do get relief in the pool (thank god im in florida hot weather) so the med store sends a physical therapist to evaluate me measure me... well guy comes & insists that i have to use a walker in home & a manual wheelchair outside.. he puts on the forms my 12 yr old daughter is my caregiver, he then proceded to give me an ultrasound treatment & said hed be back tomorrow... im peeved
a manual wheelchair is not gonna help me get a half mile with a garbage bag to my compactor ect, he says i dont want ya in a wheelchair cause it will end up being permenant, & im screwed cause i cant afford 1 i was relying on my medicare to pay for it

Im so fustrated i feel like life is 1 never ending fight, im so tired all the time, my iron count still hasnt recouped from all the bleeding i had from the methotrexate, im turning into a blimp from lack of excersise & all the damn prednisone... my damn husband went & found a woman half his age & is living with her, cut off all communication with me & my daughter, refuses to pay child support (am awaiting the paternity test child support enforcement made me & my daughter go through, idk if he showed up to give his dna or not)

Im sorry all I dont mean to post like this & whine its just a bad day for me.... i hadda blow off this steam & figured this was best way 2 do it

Thanks for listening & tolerating it

[QUOTE=Venusrose;3282450]ugh my pains are worse, today i see pain dr for the 1st time i hope something comes of it

I have to vent cause im angry.... Im diabetic, have a heart murmur, mvp,high blood pressure, diabetic neuropathy, asthma, rheumatoid arthritis & oa along now with depression & anxiety attacks

Im on insulin & byetta for diabetic, lisonopril & ispotin for the heart & bp, prozac & xanax for the depression & anxiety, prevacid cause all the meds mess with my stomache, combivent for the asthma plaquenil, prednisone (was on methrotrexate til had bad reactions & they stopped it) enbrel lidoderem patches, gabapentin, take advil even though my dr prefers i wouldnt was on vicodin but wasnt helping so they recently put me on percocet) I feel like a pharmacy

I live in a complex where its a half mile walk to garbage compactor, mailboxes office, pool... I dont drive & i find i cant walk more then 2 or 3 minutes lately pain in back gets so bad my knees have ggiven out & ive fallen 2x this month, so i talk to my dr about a power chair he says call med suppl store have papers sent he will fill them out but that he doesnt want me living in the chair 24/7, i can understand that & hate the idea of being in a chair but find if im sitting the pain is tolerable where as if i stand for to long i cant bare it, i do get relief in the pool (thank god im in florida hot weather) so the med store sends a physical therapist to evaluate me measure me... well guy comes & insists that i have to use a walker in home & a manual wheelchair outside.. he puts on the forms my 12 yr old daughter is my caregiver, he then proceded to give me an ultrasound treatment & said hed be back tomorrow... im peeved
a manual wheelchair is not gonna help me get a half mile with a garbage bag to my compactor ect, he says i dont want ya in a wheelchair cause it will end up being permenant, & im screwed cause i cant afford 1 i was relying on my medicare to pay for it

Im so fustrated i feel like life is 1 never ending fight, im so tired all the time, my iron count still hasnt recouped from all the bleeding i had from the methotrexate, im turning into a blimp from lack of excersise & all the damn prednisone... my damn husband went & found a woman half his age & is living with her, cut off all communication with me & my daughter, refuses to pay child support (am awaiting the paternity test child support enforcement made me & my daughter go through, idk if he showed up to give his dna or not)

Im sorry all I dont mean to post like this & whine its just a bad day for me.... i hadda blow off this steam & figured this was best way 2 do it

Thanks for listening & tolerating it

I can totally relate to having to vent. I have been ill since 2001 with bacterial gut problem brought about from too many antibiotics. It has ruined my life and if that was not bad enough now I have reactive arthiritis to go along with it! I never have a totally good day because if it is not my gut it is the pain and swelling in my legs and feet keeping me in the gutter! It just seems once you get down it is hard to pick yourself up again. BUT YOU CAN!
I finally decided I had to because NO ONE ELSE WOULD DO IT FOR ME. My whole family is non-supportive and almost look to me as if I am a hypochondriac even though I am on the LAST RESORT antibiotic and have been for 6 years and now all the junk connected with the arthiritis. Fatigue is absolutely one of my worst enemies. My daughters can not understand my not wanting to be super "Grandma" and keep the kids all the time.........don't they think I would like to if able? Husband is sick to death of my constant problems to the point we co-exsist now and really have no love for one another yet he stays out of responsiblity and the fact financially it would ruin him to leave. YES I CAN RELATE!!!!!!!!!:(