Rosie-------about 6 a day.......somedays a little more ...
This is one of the hardest things i have ever been thru......i just keep waking up every day hoping that i will "FEEL BETTER" and it just flat out is not happening...
I remember being on a very strict taper another time when i quit...you gotta stick to the taper, Rosie, or you are only kidding yourself. I was one of the few that actually COULD do it...i actually separated them into a pill doser, so i would know that each my doses were ready. I didn't do the wake in the middle of the night thing....but the way you taper should be based on the way you take them, all thru out the day, or one big load...Philster is GREAT to help come up with a plan. And remember : we just gotta keep trying....this is a fight for our lives!!!! I hope you are well and your little ones are feeling better as well. I read in another post you are thinking about a short stay in a detox......like just to get thru the w/d????? Not a bad idea. I know they gave me Bentyl, for stomach cramping and boy oh boy these past few days i have NEEDED them...walking around hanging on my gut all doubled over in pain......this plain out sucks!!!!!!It is like, what in the hell did i do to myself?????
Well I hope everything works out for you, i will try to help you any way i can. I have done this a time or two before and are VERY familiar with w/d...
Hey how are the meetings going????? I am having a bit of a hard time w/ them. of course yesterday i made a mistake and ended up in a step meeting, they were on step 3.....YUCK..i have a hard time opening up to people i really don't know, not sure what i think of meetings, now i have people i barely know BUGGING me on a daily basis to get out to a meeting, they want me to do 2 A DAY!!!! I do, have a life and children and 2 a day can not happen in my world. Oh well, maybe it is my addiction making me resist, who knows. I am going to look into an addiction doctor today.
Hang in there ~~~
luv,
LISA

HI....i was a little worried yesterday about ya..
CONGRATULATIONS ON 2 WEEKS :D
So the blahs are setting in , huh??? Do you have any hobbies or anything you enjoy doing for yourself?????? Everything i used to do, crafts and stuff, reminds me of being high.....
I am starting day 10. Feeling pretty good, but still get stomach cramps. I still have plenty of Bentyl and that stuff has been SUCH a life-saver. I am sleeping about 5 hours a night, but each night it seems i sleep a little less and less... :yawn: I know i should take a nap when the baby does, but....that is when i get to shower and just basically relax and do "me" stuff.
My hubby is trying to hire a new "secretary"......lovely!!! Maybe he'll become attracted to her and run off w/her and LEAVE ME ALONE!!! LOL LOL
We get along o.k........but everything is work, work work, all work and NO play...every conversation, of every second he is around. IT could be worse he used to drink and snort coke like it was going out of style!!! He has been sober, about 6 years. He is a dry drunk though, no program, he claims his work is his program.
Well kids are home for the week, VACATION....we usually go to Florida , but since my parents aren't speaking to me, that vacation spot is OUT.

I am glad you are doing good today and again, i am soooooooooooo proud of you---2 WEEKS......you go girl!!!!!
talk w/ya later,
LISA