27th January 2004
Hi Everyone,
Well I finally did it. I faced the fear that kept me using (withdrawls) and I won! It wasn't easy, but thank God I got throught it.
Day 1 Sunday, was horriable. I took my last pill at 10:30 Sunday morning. by 3:00 I started feeling the withdrawls. I had the chills, and my face felt hot, and then by 11:00 P.M, I finally grasped the meaning when people say they feel like crawling out of their skin! I took the clonidine, but for some reason it didn't help much at the time. I was bawled on the couch crying hysterically screaming for my husband to take me to the hospital. Whithin minuets I dozed off for about a hour or so from the clonidine and after that I didn't sleep at all. I took ambien for sleep that night, but unfortunatley it didn't help and I was up all night.
Day 2 Monday, I woke up and felt a little better. I was very weak and laid on the couch most of the day. The diarehea started and so did the upset stomache, so I took the immodium and the bentyl. The bentyl helped with the nausea, but the immodium only slowed the diarehea down, but it didn't stop it. I tossed and turned on the couch all day and just couldn't seem to get comfortable. I went to the store with my husband, because I felt like I needed to get outside. I guess I have a touch of cabin fever. I still have back pain, but the Motrin seems to be helping with that. I didn't sleep all day. By 11:00 P.M, I was determing to get some rest because I had not slept the prior night or on the second day. I took 2 Somma's and a Ambien, and off to sleep I went.
Day 3 Tuesday, I woke up at 7:30, and it felt good to get some sleep. I am feeling alot better today, but, I still feel very weak. I cleaned up a little, and the I had to sit down. I still can't eat, which isn't a bad thing because I could stand to loose some weight. My stomache is queezy but I have medicine for that.
I am over the worst yet????? What can I look forward to now? I want to say that I am thankful for having you guys by my side supporting me all the way. All of you have been kind and very supportive and I KNOW I couldn't have done this without you guys! All I know is I will NEVER put another opiate in my mouth again! All I have to do is think about what I went through and it is enough to keep me away from them. I don't know if it is normal, but, I have NO cravings for them whatsoever! Please advise me on what I have to look forward to now, so that I can prepare myself. I have already 2 N/A meeting that I am attending. One is on Friday night, and the other is on Monday night. What else do I need to do? When does the fog lift? When does natural sleep come back? When will I have energy?
I kept using because I feared the withdrawl, but I faced it and hopefully the worst is over now. I never want to go throught it again.......Never!
Again, thank you all for your support. I would not have been able to do this without you guys! I know this sounds stupid because I don't know you guys, but, I love you all from the bottom of my heart!
God Bless & Thank You,
~Creeky
Well I finally did it. I faced the fear that kept me using (withdrawls) and I won! It wasn't easy, but thank God I got throught it.
Day 1 Sunday, was horriable. I took my last pill at 10:30 Sunday morning. by 3:00 I started feeling the withdrawls. I had the chills, and my face felt hot, and then by 11:00 P.M, I finally grasped the meaning when people say they feel like crawling out of their skin! I took the clonidine, but for some reason it didn't help much at the time. I was bawled on the couch crying hysterically screaming for my husband to take me to the hospital. Whithin minuets I dozed off for about a hour or so from the clonidine and after that I didn't sleep at all. I took ambien for sleep that night, but unfortunatley it didn't help and I was up all night.
Day 2 Monday, I woke up and felt a little better. I was very weak and laid on the couch most of the day. The diarehea started and so did the upset stomache, so I took the immodium and the bentyl. The bentyl helped with the nausea, but the immodium only slowed the diarehea down, but it didn't stop it. I tossed and turned on the couch all day and just couldn't seem to get comfortable. I went to the store with my husband, because I felt like I needed to get outside. I guess I have a touch of cabin fever. I still have back pain, but the Motrin seems to be helping with that. I didn't sleep all day. By 11:00 P.M, I was determing to get some rest because I had not slept the prior night or on the second day. I took 2 Somma's and a Ambien, and off to sleep I went.
Day 3 Tuesday, I woke up at 7:30, and it felt good to get some sleep. I am feeling alot better today, but, I still feel very weak. I cleaned up a little, and the I had to sit down. I still can't eat, which isn't a bad thing because I could stand to loose some weight. My stomache is queezy but I have medicine for that.
I am over the worst yet????? What can I look forward to now? I want to say that I am thankful for having you guys by my side supporting me all the way. All of you have been kind and very supportive and I KNOW I couldn't have done this without you guys! All I know is I will NEVER put another opiate in my mouth again! All I have to do is think about what I went through and it is enough to keep me away from them. I don't know if it is normal, but, I have NO cravings for them whatsoever! Please advise me on what I have to look forward to now, so that I can prepare myself. I have already 2 N/A meeting that I am attending. One is on Friday night, and the other is on Monday night. What else do I need to do? When does the fog lift? When does natural sleep come back? When will I have energy?
I kept using because I feared the withdrawl, but I faced it and hopefully the worst is over now. I never want to go throught it again.......Never!
Again, thank you all for your support. I would not have been able to do this without you guys! I know this sounds stupid because I don't know you guys, but, I love you all from the bottom of my heart!
God Bless & Thank You,
~Creeky