30th August 2007
[FONT="Comic Sans MS"][SIZE="3"][COLOR="DarkOrchid"]Hi everyone...
I've been dx with MS close to a yr. ago...I've been dealing with it ok...I guess...the reason I even found out about having this is because I was suffering from migraines...non-stop every day...morning noon and night pounding...drilling...painful headaches...I at one point begged my kids to get one of my husbands drills and just drill a small hole in the back of my head to relieve some of the pressure...My Dr. has put me on so many different drugs that I can't even think if I tried any of them before...This last time he put me on Topamax...Frova...and of course for the depression Effexor...well I stayed on the topamax for 4 months...everything was tasting horrible but I dealt with it...I couldn't handle the Frova...it knocked me out for days...and I can't really take much time off of work...I'm a mail carrier...yea I know...I walk every day with a pounding headache...sometimes I feel like I'm spaced out and drunk or something...but I also couldn't handle the Effexor...it made me nauscious...I would be in the bathroom throwing up and dizzy and tingly all over...so I stopped those and stuck out the topamax...well my Dr. saw me on my route one day...he scared the crap out of me...it took me close to a minute to even figure out who he was...thats how out of it I am...I had an appt. to see him but had to cancel the last 2 times cuz I couldn't handle going out with my head throbbing and I just wanted to stay in bed...but I did get to him yesterday and he was mad cuz I stopped all my meds without calling him and telling him how I was feeling...he said I shouldn't have waited 4 months to tell him that the topamax wasn't working...I just thought it needed time to get in my system...so now he put me on a pill I took last night that was supposed to take my headache away...it did a little but I still woke up with one and he wanted me to come in today for an infusion...so I did...3 hours of infusions...UGH!!! He put me on some new meds...I can't recall the one cuz its still at the drugstore...but Axert for when it starts up...Wellbutrin XL for my depression...and now a steroid....how much longer is this gonna go on? I really feel like just letting it take its course...My moods are horrible...I kicked my son out of the house...he's 22 and it was time but I haven't spoken to him in 2 months...my daughter is starting to do things I know aren't good but of course being an adult I know nothing...even though its a been there done that thing...she's 17 and I kicked her out too...only for the weekend cuz she called when she ran out of places to go...I can't handle my moods anymore and I want to say that I'm not depressed its just these dam headaches are driving me crazy...I ache everywhere...all the time...I don't want to do things with our friends cuz of my meds...and my Dr. wants me to see a psychiatrist cuz he thinks this depression could be causing my headaches...even though I have MS and all the lesions on my brain...I'm tired...I don't want anymore pills or injections...I want to taste things the normal way...I want to smile and be happy...How do I do this? Has anyone taken any of my meds and if so what can I expect? Sorry to have poored this on you but I really think I needed to tell someone. Thanks so much for listening. [/FONT]
I've been dx with MS close to a yr. ago...I've been dealing with it ok...I guess...the reason I even found out about having this is because I was suffering from migraines...non-stop every day...morning noon and night pounding...drilling...painful headaches...I at one point begged my kids to get one of my husbands drills and just drill a small hole in the back of my head to relieve some of the pressure...My Dr. has put me on so many different drugs that I can't even think if I tried any of them before...This last time he put me on Topamax...Frova...and of course for the depression Effexor...well I stayed on the topamax for 4 months...everything was tasting horrible but I dealt with it...I couldn't handle the Frova...it knocked me out for days...and I can't really take much time off of work...I'm a mail carrier...yea I know...I walk every day with a pounding headache...sometimes I feel like I'm spaced out and drunk or something...but I also couldn't handle the Effexor...it made me nauscious...I would be in the bathroom throwing up and dizzy and tingly all over...so I stopped those and stuck out the topamax...well my Dr. saw me on my route one day...he scared the crap out of me...it took me close to a minute to even figure out who he was...thats how out of it I am...I had an appt. to see him but had to cancel the last 2 times cuz I couldn't handle going out with my head throbbing and I just wanted to stay in bed...but I did get to him yesterday and he was mad cuz I stopped all my meds without calling him and telling him how I was feeling...he said I shouldn't have waited 4 months to tell him that the topamax wasn't working...I just thought it needed time to get in my system...so now he put me on a pill I took last night that was supposed to take my headache away...it did a little but I still woke up with one and he wanted me to come in today for an infusion...so I did...3 hours of infusions...UGH!!! He put me on some new meds...I can't recall the one cuz its still at the drugstore...but Axert for when it starts up...Wellbutrin XL for my depression...and now a steroid....how much longer is this gonna go on? I really feel like just letting it take its course...My moods are horrible...I kicked my son out of the house...he's 22 and it was time but I haven't spoken to him in 2 months...my daughter is starting to do things I know aren't good but of course being an adult I know nothing...even though its a been there done that thing...she's 17 and I kicked her out too...only for the weekend cuz she called when she ran out of places to go...I can't handle my moods anymore and I want to say that I'm not depressed its just these dam headaches are driving me crazy...I ache everywhere...all the time...I don't want to do things with our friends cuz of my meds...and my Dr. wants me to see a psychiatrist cuz he thinks this depression could be causing my headaches...even though I have MS and all the lesions on my brain...I'm tired...I don't want anymore pills or injections...I want to taste things the normal way...I want to smile and be happy...How do I do this? Has anyone taken any of my meds and if so what can I expect? Sorry to have poored this on you but I really think I needed to tell someone. Thanks so much for listening. [/FONT]