I have had similar problems. To start off, I am a recovering meth addict. For years I had depression which I treated with street drugs...pot, booze, benzos, methamphetamine, you name it. After getting sober and working with both psychiatrist and psychologist, the diagnosed me as ADD. I was like you in that I was seeking to get amphetamine meds, ADD or not. Long story short, I was prescribed ritalin in a patch form called Daytrana (30mg). It works great and there is no worry about abuse because you can't chop it up and snort it or anything like that. I also take 200mg Provigil (helps with alertness), and 400mg Wellbutrin (depression). Oh yeah I also was diagnosed with sleep apnea. To sum up, after using illegal drugs for 22 years, I finally found the right treatment.