31st December 2006
Thank you feelbad, for your thoughtful reply.
I have been feeling depressed, especially since my pain started, and moreso the longer I took the meds. About a month ago I awoke in the night with my first, and so far only, panic attack, and at that time I knew I had to start some serious soul searching.
I don't want to go down the wrong road, so to speak. There is a part of me that says, "address this NOW". I am listening.
I have been off meds for 2 days. Doing ok. Trying to think about one day at a time.
Last week I made an appointment with a therapist. I thought that I could deal with this all myself, but I can't. I also had a talk with my husband, who was very supportive.
It helps me to know that I am at least trying to do the right things for myself. Something keeps telling me that it will all be ok someday, and that I am heading in the right direction.
I have also started seeing a new DO. She seems like someone who really wants to help, so that is a good thing too.
As for my pain, it has been difficult to get a good diagnosis-hence part of the problem. The general consensus seems to be that it is coming from my SI joint. I had one steroid injection there that actually made it worse-other than that I have been on oral meds-tried celebrex and arthrotec-did nothing-now on meloxicam which I think helps some. Plus the tramadol and hydro. I was taking ambien for about 6 months to help me sleep-but I decided to get off that too. For the most part I have been successful with that-but do take it occasionally still. Tried amitriptyline, hated it!! Do not want to take antidepressants at this time. Thinking of trying some "natural" supplements.
My pain varies day to day-sometimes I actually have none! But that is rare. Most days I vary between a 3 to a 7 at the worst.
I used to exercise but a lot of times it hurts-but I do try. I miss it though. I used to do yoga too, and I miss that also!
Anyway, that is more of my story. By the way, I am NOT having a baby-not sure where that came from! :D
Thank you so much!
I have been feeling depressed, especially since my pain started, and moreso the longer I took the meds. About a month ago I awoke in the night with my first, and so far only, panic attack, and at that time I knew I had to start some serious soul searching.
I don't want to go down the wrong road, so to speak. There is a part of me that says, "address this NOW". I am listening.
I have been off meds for 2 days. Doing ok. Trying to think about one day at a time.
Last week I made an appointment with a therapist. I thought that I could deal with this all myself, but I can't. I also had a talk with my husband, who was very supportive.
It helps me to know that I am at least trying to do the right things for myself. Something keeps telling me that it will all be ok someday, and that I am heading in the right direction.
I have also started seeing a new DO. She seems like someone who really wants to help, so that is a good thing too.
As for my pain, it has been difficult to get a good diagnosis-hence part of the problem. The general consensus seems to be that it is coming from my SI joint. I had one steroid injection there that actually made it worse-other than that I have been on oral meds-tried celebrex and arthrotec-did nothing-now on meloxicam which I think helps some. Plus the tramadol and hydro. I was taking ambien for about 6 months to help me sleep-but I decided to get off that too. For the most part I have been successful with that-but do take it occasionally still. Tried amitriptyline, hated it!! Do not want to take antidepressants at this time. Thinking of trying some "natural" supplements.
My pain varies day to day-sometimes I actually have none! But that is rare. Most days I vary between a 3 to a 7 at the worst.
I used to exercise but a lot of times it hurts-but I do try. I miss it though. I used to do yoga too, and I miss that also!
Anyway, that is more of my story. By the way, I am NOT having a baby-not sure where that came from! :D
Thank you so much!