I'm starting to think that I may be more than just bipolar. I think I may be schizophrenic or schizoaffective. There are so many weird thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis, I just can't rationalize many of them. Like the other day I went to the dentist, and for some reason I thought of hurting her

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. Like violent thoughts always pop into my head and I can't help it. I wouldn't really think of acting on these thoughts, but they remain in the back of my head. I am currently taking 20mg of Abilify and 200mg of Lamictal.

Also, my thoughts are so scattered and random. It is very frustrating and annoys me that I can't string coherent thoughts together. I feel like an idiot all the time too, like people think I'm stupid or anything I say is stupid. I need help.

Should I talk to my pdoc about changing meds? I am thinking of going on an anti-depressant, just a low dose to help with everything.

I called my doctor yesterday about scheduling an earlier appointment. The reason I called was because I have been extremely jittery lately, like shaking and not being able to stay still. I believe this is from the up from 10mg to 20mg of the Abilify.

These thoughts of violence and the sort have been going on for a long time. It's something that I've talked about with my doctor in the past but he doesn't seem too concerned with it.